The Lost Moments

How it all started

Have you ever just felt like going back
in time to fix those embarrassing,up setting,sad moments,or wish you where someone else?Well,I have.Now you probably want to know what I'm talking about.Well my name is Alexis Elizabeth Smith, I'm sixteen,Im about 5 ft and 7 in,tannish skin,short light brown hair,golden in sunlight,and I have a dramatic yet suttle look.I almost forgot the whole point of why I'm telling you this,and why my life is basically,pointless.I,have lung cancer.My parents and I first found out when 9.I was playing with my dolls in my room when all of a sudden, my chest felt like it was on fire.I couldn't breath for my life.So I ran down the stairs and I yelled Mom,Dad but I forgot they where at the neighbors house across the street so I stumbled out the door and ran across the street and ran on to the porch.I knocked on the door while hot tears ran down my face the next thing I knew,Im past out on their porch,my mom and dad come running out, tears bursted from their eyes.About an hour later I was in the emergency room facing my new life,the cancer life.Ive always wished for some brilliant doctor to find a cure but that never happened.Ive learned that no matter how much I've wished on stars for this to happen, it never has.My mom says that I should never give up and that I should never,ever lose hope,but I lost all hope of any doctors finding a cure for cancer a long time ago.My parents said that I should stop being depressed and upset at the world and find the light that's left in my heart where my last bit of hope lies.I always say that one day or today this world will end and nothing will matter anymore.So apparently my parents thought that it would be a good idea to sigh me up for a support group,Because they thought that I'd kill myself before the cancer did.I obviously thought that It was a horrible idea but,apparently my opinion didn't matter when it came to situations like this.So I went.The first four times I went were boring and unbearable but I began to get use to it after the fifth time I went.I was usually quiet until Nick (The host of the support group) picked on me to share.I felt like a bright light was shinning in my eyes but I shared anyways "Uh...hi,my name is Alexis Smith and I have lung cancer".
"We'll it's nice to finally hear your voice Alexis"."Why don't you share Cameron?"He whispered.
"Uh...ok my name is Cameron and I also have lung cancer."He said in a light voice.
"Ok guys,ill see guys next Friday"Nick shouted with his loud, obnoxious voice.
I scurried out the door not even caring who or what I ran into.I wish didn't run into the door though.
"Oow".I whispered while I laughed at myself on the floor like an insane person,I mean I know how to act sane but,I just chose not to,because that's not the kind of person I am.Im the kind of person that laughs at themselves when they get hurt,Im the kind of person who doesn't care what people think,and if you don't like my personality,Im the kind of person who's not gonna give a fuck.O ya,thats the kind of person I am.
O no, I didn't think Cameron saw that until he was walking my way.God I was a hot mess.I looked like I popped out of a washer machine half way through.
"Uh..Alexis..right".
"And you are...?"
"I'm Cameron".
"And is that suppose mean something?"I said with my right eyebrow raised.
"No..but I saw you run into the door..I wanted to see if you were ok..no offense ,but, it was pretty funny."He let out a chuckle before he helped me up.
"Great,I barely know you and your already laughing at me,what a gentle men you are."I said sarcasticly."Well,I guess it was kind of funny,but I've done way more funnier things then that".I chuckled awkwardly.This seemed like it was going to go somewhere like in those romance novels where they kiss.I thought it was going to end like that but of course, it didn't,since when does that ever happen in real life?!!And of course,it got even worse.
"Honey,come on,you have to take your meds."My mom yelled and kept beeping from the parking lot until I turned around and gave her an evil glare.
"OMG this is not happening,not here,not right now."I whispered to myself.Cameron heard me,but he said nothing.
"MOM!!Ugh."I yelled.
"We'll bye Cameron"I said angry as hell.
I began walking toward the parking lot embarrassed as hell,I began to turn bright red."Ugh did that really just happen?"