Life As Luna

whats real life

I get up out of bed and my pillow is wet from the tears I cried all night.
I couldn't believe anything she told me, I couldn't believe my mom, my family, my friends... I just couldn't trust anyone.
I'm already an social outcast so what can I do now. Just drown in my thoughts like I always do or do something. Ugh I thought about it and I just don't know all I really wanna do is just lay down go back to sleep and have a normal dream or something normal happen to me.
Either way I have to figure out how to pick myself up after this ...
Think... think... I'm just gonna act like all is normal and then when I know myself what's going on then ima get down to the grit of it all.

We have gym this morning so it'll be easy to cancel myself out of this just not dress out like I'm suppose to do but never do.
"Hey girl where the hell you been? I've been texting no response. I thought we were all going out this weekend like wassup?" , Porsha said sounding very upset.
"My bad I kinda zoned out with everything going on at home so I'm sorry but we can still all go out Saturday night. Skate rink right?" I said to her.
"Its okay but girl you could have just said something. But yeah we all going to be there around 7. Oh and Julez is gonna be there to so be cute.", porsha says smiling at me and looking in Julez direction.
I honestly don't even care for Julez but since everyone thinks he is just the bomb dot com I have to like him to. Or at least I think that's how it works. I mean he seem sweet and nice and all but I already have alot on my plate.  Plus he already dated half the school I think I'm cool on him.

"Anyways.."I said laughing. "Where Rose and Nova?"
"They are out for the day something about one of them got sick and the other had got it too." Says Porsha.
"Well are they going this weekend too?" I say looking Porsha up and down.
"Girl yes they already told me they were going to." Porsha said.
"Great I was just wondering since you making it seem dire for me to be there and not them" I said joking it off.
"That is not the case I just know someone wants to date you and your so stuck up you can't even see it. So as your bestie ima make it happen for you!" Porsha said smiling cheek to cheek.
"Whatever I guess." I said.

For the remainder of the time I sat on the sidelines while Porsha finished gym class and we walked to our next class together.

"So P how well do you know Rose and Nova really? You said yall met over summer at a dance met for school. But what else have they told you about them?", I say wanting to know every little detail.
"Well most I can tell you is they live close by us. There parents are always out of town cause they work across the country so they have a nanny... um they have alot of money... that's pretty much all I can think of." P says thinking to herself damn that's it.
"Shit well if thats all you know about them then sis how are they your friends.. close friends at that? You know what I'm just going to shh cause I don't wanna say the wrong thing." I say walking up to our next class.
"Girl it's never that deep they still my girls so whatever." Porsha says laughing it off.

So at this point I still don't know anything about these girls. And porsha doesn't either but I would have expected her to know a mean just a bit more. But I guess this can help me in some way. I think I have a plan its just if I can execute it the right way.
I meet up with Porsha at the bus waiting hall after our day is about over.

"So I'm gonna meet you at your house later on so we can talk more about tomorrow and what were gonna wear and stuff. Tell Rose and Nova to come over to so we all can leave together." I say to Porsha when I see my bus pull up.
"Okay ima message you when I get home." Porsha said.

Alright I have everything working in the right motion. Just gotta wait til tonight to bring it all together.