I'm not a fan (Harry Styles Fanfic) *COMPLETED*

Chapter34-I didnt want to love you.

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Okay enough of talking about crap.

Here is chapter34!

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Julia's P.O.V:

I was dragged into Paul's black van, watching Harry stand there, motionless in the middle of the park. I was so heartbroken, I poured my heart out to him and its like he doesn't care..

"So, what on earth happened?" Paul asked as we drove away.

"Management happened.." I said as I watched Harry's figure disappear.

"Ah, that's always the problem" Paul sighed.

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I got out of the van and ran into Niall's arms. "N-Niall, I t-told him that I loved h-him just like I p-promised you, but he d-didn't care, and he got me d-dragged away by s-security!" I stuttered, sobbing into his chest.

"He did what?!" Liam said walking towards me.

"He called security on Julia.." Niall half-smiled.

"Ugh! So what exactly happened?" Louis asked.

"I kissed Niall and then realised that Harry was glaring at me, he got enraged and ran away, I ran after him and told him to slow down but he didn't.. I eventually caught up with him, but he told me to leave him alone, but when I said no, he yelled at me and called security to take me away.. And when security was dragging me to Paul's car, I told Harry that I'll always love him.. But Harry didn't even care, he just stood there acting like it was all no big deal.." I mumbled.

"Don't worry love, he'll say sorry in a while.. He just gets jealous really easily.." Louis rubbed my back.

I nodded my head and let the tears roll down my cheek as my eyelids grew heavier and heavier.

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I opened my eyes and quickly dug in my pockets for my iPhone5, I clutched onto it and checked the time. I locked it and then checked it again, realising I wasn't really focusing the first time.

4:12pm.

"I'm sorry guys.. I'm just really jealous, you know? Lou, I told you that I wanted her to be mine.. Remember? I said I loved her and I needed her in my life.. My life is shattering in front of my eyes, and I'm losing the one girl that I don't want to lose, so its her choice, she's the one holding my future.."The familiar Cheshire accent said.

I sat up and looked around, I was in Harry's room, Louis must of carried me in here or something. I got up and quickly dashed into the guest room.. Also known as the room that holds my belongings. I had a shower and then changed into my sweatpants and sports bra, today is going to be a lazy day eating tubs of ice-cream and watching depressing romantic movies with Eleanor I walked out into the lounge room and noticed all the boys sitting on the couch. "Move over a bit" I smiled pushing Louis off of the couch and taking his spot. "mm.." Louis murmured. "What's wrong with everyone.. Your all starring at a blank screen.. Helloooo the T.V is off" I waved my hands in front of there faces.

"Can we talk?" Harry said grabbing my arm.

The boys gulped and looked at me with pleading eyes.. What is Harry going to do to me that's making the boys act so worried?

"Okay" I replied following him into his room.

He closed the door, and as soon as he did he crashed his lips onto mine.

I didn't kiss back, I didn't even close my eyes.. I just stood there as he tried to make me kiss him.

He got angrier, so he pulled me into him as he pushed me against the door.

Nope, im not going to kiss back no matter how seductive he is.

I pushed him off, "We're supposed to be talking"

"Why didn't you kiss baaack?!" Harry whined.

"Because I didn't want to kiss you" I stated.

He looked hurt, but who cares, he can't just hurt me and then expect me to love him... Even though I do love him..

"Well, what are we supposed to be talking about" I asked.

"Oh right, well I'm really sorry about calling the security guards on you, it's just, that I don't want to love you because I know that I'll hurt you, no matter how much I try not too.." He sighed.

"Okay, I'll get out of your life then!" I yelled, turning around, so that I was facing the door.

"Not so fast" he chuckled, wrapping his arms around my waist from behind.

Shivers ran through my body as he rested his head on my shoulder.

"I don't want to love you-.." He began.

"Good, because I don't want you to love me!" I interrupted.

"Let me finish, I don't want to love you, but I do love you, and I can't stop my heart from doing what it wants to do. I love you. I love you. I love you. And I need you in my life, or right now I want you to kill me, because a life without you is a life I'd rather not live" He handed me a knife.

"If you don't love me, then kill me, right here right now, because if I die, I want you to be the last view I see" he croaked as tears formed in his eyes.

I looked down at the knife that Harry had just given to me.

"Your h-holding my life in your hands" Harry stuttered.

"Harry, I can't love you" I cried.

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I sort of dont have anything to say.. I guess I'll just have a little editors note.

There's going to be a happy or sad end to this, you just have to wait and see. Harry is literally DIEING to be with julia but we all know that he will hurt her.. Eventually.. Or will he? Can he change for her, lets say that he hurts her, and she leaves, then what will happen will he kill himself?

Weird.

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