I always took being young for granted. I was a trouble maker class clown, athlete, good friend, shy, and retarded. I know what you're thinking, “what kind of weird personality is that". Even I don't understand myself my friend. Anyways I always had an idea as to what I wanted to do when I became older and out of high school. I drempt of being in college, in the military, traveling around the world, taking wrestling far,etc. My Mom had always told me to stay in reality, see when I was young I felt that everything I told my mom as to what I wanted to be and do, was shut down. It seemed as though she always had something negative to say and I was angry because of it. But as I sit here on a lonely cold November night I think of every time I let my laziness get the better of me. Perhaps the comments on all 12 of my report cards stating that I lacked effort and was lazy was actually, finally processed. She was right I was not a determined kid, procrastination would be my game and I was a complete fool. I'm slowly losing everything, yet I've never felt closer to freedom.
