You're My Drug ~ Alistair Crow Saga

{6} The Talk in the Woods

That night once I could fall asleep the dream came again, probably because I couldn't think of anything else. At school I tried to pretend everything was fine, but that's hard to do around someone who literally knows my every thought. I knew he knew I was still bothered, but he also knew I didn't want to talk about it. We both just spent the day pretending nothing happened.

After school I was going to go straight home, but Samuel wanted me to go with him somewhere. Apparently he had something he wanted to show me. We got in the car and drove for about 20 minutes. We stopped about two miles out of town.

"So, what'd you want to show me? There's nothing but trees as far as the eye can see, which, admittedly, isn't that far on account of all the trees."

"I lied, I just wanted to get some guaranteed privacy. We need to talk about this, I know you've been obsessing over the dream, it's all you can think about anymore. You need to let it out. I'll be honest I already know what questions go through your mind on loop, but it helps to talk about these things."

"So that was the plan? Bring me out in the middle of nowhere and force me to talk? I'm just trying to forget all about it!"

"Well you're not doing a very good job of it?"

"I'm leaving, even if it means walking there." I began to walk away.

"Alistair! Wait! I admit I shouldn't have brought you this far to talk about this I just wanted privacy, I didn't mean to corner you into talking. I just genuinely care about you and I know it's not healthy to bottle things up like this."

"I really don't want to talk about this, can you please just take me home?"

"Please, Alistair, talk to me, let it all out. If not for your sake do it for me, your best friend." Why did that last phrase make it feel like there was a knife in my chest?

"Do I have to?"

"Please?" How dare he use puppy-dog eyes on me?

"Ugh fine, but I'll have you know my agreeing has nothing to do with those puppy-dog eyes."

"Yay! Thank you so much!" He grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. There was that warmth again, it was there every time he touched me ever since he did in the stranger's lair.

"Well, I guess the big question would be what the source of the dream was. I know you already said it was just hormones or horniness but that wouldn't explain why it bothered me so much. I thought about the possibility that I started to have feelings for you, but I've never had any feelings like this for you or any guy before that night. Feelings like this don't just come out of nowhere."

"Well sexuality is fluid so there's a chance that you do feel something for me despite not feeling like this for any other guy. And with the suddenness of it, you might have just not noticed. There's also the possibility that none of this means anything and you really were just pent up."

"Thanks for all the wonderfully definitive answers."

"Hey no need for sarcasm, I was just trying to help. Y'know if it's definitive answers you want I have been considering an experiment."

"What kind of experiment?"

"Well if it was just hormones, they've probably settled down by now, but if you have developed feelings, they'd still be there. If we did something that would stimulate those feelings, your reaction would reveal how you really feel."

"What do you mean? What are you going to do to "stimulate" them?"

"Isn't it obvious? I'm going to kiss you." He was already standing right next to me so it only took one step for him to pin me against the tree I was leaning against. He put his face inches away from mine. "If you have any reservations about this experiment, speak now or forever hold your peace."

I didn't say anything. My heart was beating so loudly and quickly, I barely heard what Samuel had said. All I could focus on was the rapidly decreasing distance between our lips. Time seemed to slow to a crawl. Finally, after what seemed like ages, our lips connected. My body filled with the warmth and I wanted more. There was something strange about this warmth, it was better than any drug, more addictive too. I wanted to feel that warmth every waking moment for the rest of my life. I started to kiss back, I wrapped my arms around his neck so he couldn't stop until I let him.

I kissed him more deeply and it soon turned from a kiss into a full on make out session. After several minutes we parted for air. We were both panting and out of breath.

"Alright so I think we have a definite answer."

I chuckle, "Yeah I guess we do. I didn't realize it could feel so good."

"So now that we have that settled, do you want to go out on a date with me?"

"Give me a minute to calm my heart down and process that, and I'll probably say yes. I might have a heart attack if I get any more excitement."

"Haha, let's get you home. We'll discuss the details of our date later once your heart settles down."

We got back in his car and drove back home, the hole time we held hands. I never wanted this to end.