How I'm feeling

11/19/19

I don't even know why my friend (lets call her Mia, I don't know anyone named Mia so I'm sorry to anyone named Mia) is mad at me but she keeps bringing up the topic that I'm going to a concert for a group I don't stan. And I'm just like ... okay and? Like I'm getting into the group and learning about them and their songs. When I wanna stan I make an effort to stan. I didn't just see that they're having a concert and say I'm gonna stan and go to their concert. I saw their new comeback and I fell in love with the song because it was amazing. And I remembered they were having a concert in my city so I decided I wanted to go. I obviously won't go by myself because that's dangerous so I asked all of my friends in our group chat if anyone wanted to go with me. I know for a fact 2 of my friends would be so down to go. One of my friends (lets call her Ellie) wanted to go too so I was super excited. I mean like seeing that comeback song live would be pretty cool. So I bought the tickets and me and Ellie are gonna go to the concert together. I'm very hyped about it even though it's in a month. But Mia keeps attacking me for it and I don't understand what's wrong. Because I listen to their songs on repeat and I love all of their songs. I also know all the member's names and I've started learning the fanchants. Mia is bashing me saying I shouldn't go to a concert if I don't really stan a group. But I want to stan them so that's why I've made an effort to learn about them. Even if I wasn't going to the concert I would've still gotten into this group because I took interest in them. I don't know what Mia's problem is with this because it's not her money so why does it matter how I'm spending my money? And she's being a hypocrite because she went to a concert for a group she didn't even know and she didn't know anything about the group, she only knew 2 songs. So I don't see what the issue is here. What's wrong with me going to a concert when I've decided to stan and I really like them too. I'm not the biggest fan obviously because I've just gotten into them but a concert is an experience. And I'm pretty sure Ellie isn't even as big of a fan of them as me even though Ellie started stanning them way before me. And it's not like she's the one going and spending her money so why does she care? She's so hung up on this one thing and I just don't get it. It's like her excuse to be mad at me. It's not like I get everything I want when I ask for it. I get rewarded with treats like bubble tea for example because I do good in school and I don't act up. It just feels like she's mad that I'm going to a concert because "I don't REALLY stan" a group. Like there's multiple people that go to concerts just for fun even if they don't know the artist so how am I any different? I just want to learn about more groups. And I really want to support them because they're still kind of a small group even though they debuted 2 years ago. If anything the worst thing I'm doing is not knowing every single fact about the members. So I don't understand why Mia's so upset over me going to a concert.