WISHES

Past

   Hello Im Alexandra, I go by Alex, I really wanna change my name 1. cause It seems like a boy name 2. I was named after my father Alexander was his name, I dont wanna be named after my father, why? Here is my life story

When I was born my mom walked out of my life, I dont know where or what she is doing to this day, and to be honest I dont care, my dad always said when she found out she was pregnant, she was so angry, she got so mad at my dad for getting her pregnant she threatened to leave him when I was born (why didnt she abort me? I dont know) He thought that she was just mad at the time and wouldnt do it, well news flash she did

My father always blaimed me, and said if I was never born she wouldnt of left him, and he would always bring women to the house and when they would see me they would leave, of course I would be facing the consequences, 'its your fault! If you werent born I would still have her' and 'if you didnt live with me I would actually be happy' etc etc

He never actaully physically abused me, but mentally, which in my opinion hurts the same

He finally kicked me out, when I was 13 I had nowhere to go, thank God My amazing grandma saved me, I love her so much!

She was like a angel sent from above, I dont know how but not even a hour on the streets she drove by and saw me

Ive been living with her since, and barly ever speak to my father,  Im very upset, but more ashamed...

Nan (my grandma) is the Mother of my Father and oh lordie, I dont know where that devil got it from cause his mother is a angel.

Ive been happy and healthy since I moved in with Nan, God bless her

Back when I lived with my father, I didnt have any friends, I was very depressed and kept to myself, nobody ever put in effort into talking to me, and I was okay with that.

But ever since Ive been living with nan I have opened up and been more social, I wouldnt say I have alot of friends but I defintetally have some

I dont let my past effect who I am, I live a normal life and dont let my past define who I am, I honestly try to ignord it, but its kinda hard, exspessally when my dad trys to talk to me... Sometimes he gets really drunk and calls me and starts spitting mean insults telling me how everything is my fault, I try not to let it get to me

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AN hey babes, sorry for such a short chapter, I'll try to make the next one longer, I just wanted to say thank you for reading and please let me know if you liked it by voting, Im gonna try to post the next chapter soon! Xoxoxo

~Love Briley~