My Brothers Best Friend

Chapter 5

"Drew!" I looked up from the bathroom stall to see both Abbey and May walking into the bathroom.

"Look guys, I'm fine just uh let me be alone please?" I pleaded as the girls exchanged looks. They nodded even though i could see right through them and could tell that they didnt want to leave me, but they knew that thats exactly what i needed and wanted right now.

I silently thanked them as they left and began crying again. The only thing that could cross my mind was Justin. Why did he have to be suh a jerk? That fight that we just had in the lunch room is going to be all over school. Everyone is going to constantly being making up rumors about Justin and I, because i know fo a fact everyone at lunch heard Justin and I.

If it wasnt bad already with me being the first person to ever Justin's jersey and now that huge fight over my detention. Yeah i should consider my self dead now. Every girl is going to want to chop my head off with a chain saw i know that much already. Justin is like the most popular guy in school along side my brother Logan, and he just addmitted that he cared about me infront of every one. GRRR why does my life have to be so complicated.

Also since when the hell has Justin ever cared about me? I mean he's always been a god dang jerk to me. He trys to piss me off as much as he possibly can, and now just randomly he says that he cares about me? Yeah there deffinatly is something wrong with him. Justin Carter is not known as a guy to go around an caring about a girl. So why the hell would he care about me, his best friends baby sister.

I was snapped away from my thoughts when i could hear the bell ending lunch. Knowing that i would get in even more trouble then i already am in, i quickly stood up washed my face, and headed back to my next class. I walked into the hallways to recieve many glares and glances. Apparetnly the news from lunch must have traveld faster then i thought, not wanting to spend another second here i ran out of the school and stopped when i got to the baseball field.

I know this is considered skipping and Logan is going to be even more pissed then he is for me just getting detention but i can't handle all of this right now. I need to just be away from everyone and just think for a little bit.  This may be the first time that i have ever skipped class but i have no choice.

I cant stand people looking at me and whispering about me behind my backs right in front of me all day. Yes, i may have the schools most popular boy as a brother, but just because he is confident and has a huge ego doesnt mean i do to. I am basicly one of the most insecure people my friends know. I absolutely hate when people talk about me. It makes me feel like everyone hates me and their just pointing out my flaws like 1 2 3 and let me tell you there sure are alot of them.

Not wanting May and Abbey to worry about me more then they already are i quickely sent them a text telling them that i needed a break and am sitting by the baseball fields. The baseball fields game me a reminder that i had to stay even longer after my detention and wait for both Logan and Justin to finish their stupid Baseball practice.  I don't get why they have to practice everysingle day for like 4 hours a day and do like weight lifting and crap every morning. I mean the baseball team has gone to state every year for the past like 5 years. So why are they training even harder this year then ever before?

"Hey Drew, I know you said that you wanted to be alone, but uh i was getting worried and i figured you might want some company to sit with you out here for the next couple of hours." I looked up to find Abbey walking over to me with a grin spreading across her face. I smiled back up at her to let her know it was okay and then looked over to the flowers growing infront of us.

" I just don't get it. He's always been a plain out jerk to me. Pissing me off when ever he can, always fighting with me and everything. Since when has he ever cared about me Abbey? This doesn't make any sience at freaking all!" I screamed out, letting the tears reapear on my face.

"Drew, he's always cared about you. When Justin pisses you off, or fights with you, that's his way of showing that he likes you. He always has. Why do you think he spends so much time at you house? We all know your brother is hot and everything but he's not that great. Justin has had a crush on you since he was in like 5th grade. Everyone knows that but you. Even Logan knows that!" Abbey laughed out.

Wait did she just say that Justin had a crush on me? EW!!! Gross oh my god that's absoulutely discusting. I would rather date a freaking dead rotten pig before Justin. Thats just gross, like really gross.

"EW! God damn thats fucking discusting!" I yelled out pretending to gag as the thought washed over me.

"Your only saying that because you dont want to like him. I am taking Justin's side on this bet thing that he has against you. I think that Justin will be abl to break your barrier. Justin is like a dream guy that everyone wants to date and he wants you. He is perfect for you Drew. You just dont want yourself to like him. I know you think about him all the time, and that you love his colone, hence the reason you randomly smelled his jersey at lunch before the huge fight. Drew you just got to let him break your walls down and let him make you happy again."

You see last year, my sophmore year, i dated this guy names Blake. I thought i was in love with him and everything. We dated for like 7 months untill he brought me to this one party and got drunk. He tried to get me to sleep with him but i wouldnt go. When he realized i wasnt going to have sex with him, he tried to rape me. He put his hand over my mouth to muffel my screams and everything and draged me up to a empty bedroom up stairs. luckily Logan being the player he is, was getting it on with a girl in the next room when he heard my muffled crying and the fighting between me and Blake. He walked into the room to see what was going on and he found Blake ontop of me trying to rip my clothes off of me and rape me. Logan was able to beat the crap out of Blake and take me home.

Ever since i've put up these huge walls and i dont let anyone besides May and Abbey in. I have even shut Logan out. This is one if the things that have caused me to be so insecure about my self.  Logan knows that i shut him out after the accedient but he doesnt get why and he hates it. Justin found out about what happened from Logan, and that caused me to hate him even more. Logan just went and told Justin like it was his story to tell but it wasnt. That's why i shut Logan out and put even more hate towards Justin.

" I know your thinking about what happened last year now Drew, its showing on your now pale face. Im sorry for bringing it up, but please just let Justin in. Let him help you break your walls, and give him a chance. He's not Blake." Abbey screamed out causing me to look up and snap out of my flashback.

Instently putting a wall up toward Abbey I muttered a quick and demanding 'NO' before getting up and starting to walk home. I didnt care about school, my detention, Abbey, or what Logan and Justin were gonna say. I needed a break from everyone and everything and i needed it now.