he had the ability to change everything. he knew that too, he had her wrapped around his finger. he knew that he could change everything for her but yet that meant nothing to him. he meant everything to her, but she meant absolutely nothing to him. she knew that too, she knew she couldn't change him, she knew that no matter what she did she would never ever be enough for him. that's what she always settled for..the ones who she'd never be enough for. she didn't know any different though and she didn't think she ever would. she wanted to be enough, she so desperately wanted to be enough, but no matter how much she tried to suppress the feeling, she knew she would never ever be enough. not for him at least. all she wanted was to make him happy, to be what he needed. unfortunately that was a spot she'd never fill. she had these thoughts of "maybe one day" or "maybe he'll finally come to his senses." in her gut she knew it would never happen. he was going to find his happiness somewhere else, he was going to find his home somewhere else. she was maybe going to be good for a while, but that wouldn't satisfy him for long. it was only a matter of time before he left. all she was doing now was waiting for him to get tired of her, everyone always got tired of her. maybe she was meant to make him happy, maybe she was meant to be what he needed to be fulfilled, maybe she was so used to being left that this was what she feared most with him. it was disappointment after disappointment, so until the very end she would hold out hope that maybe, just maybe she would be enough.
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