Try Caring (Harry Styles/ One Direction)

2- Am I worth it?

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Addy's POV

Everything mum told me hurt. I don't even know if I should even call her that, she sure hasn't been one to me. I got up from my bed and went to look at myself in the mirror. I saw a girl with bright blue eyes and blond hair with brown roots. She had pale skin with rosy cheeks and a pair of white straight teeth. Some may find me attractive but I thought differently. Who would like me? I was just an ordinary girl; there was nothing special about me or anything unique.

Thinking about all those hateful things Caroline said really hurt. Yea I used to think that I was a nobody and no guy would ever like me but with the things she just said it made it worse. It got me to think lowlier of me, if that's even possible.

No one would care if I killed myself, not even my own mother would and that's a shame. Since I don't even go to school, friends are out of the question. See! No one would care! I'm alone in this cruel world, not one single person would give a damn! Who knows maybe one day there will be someone out there who will care about me but I need one now, not in the future.

I have never felt so lonely in my life.

What would happen if I just disappear from this world? Would anybody care? Would they be there for me or just completely ignore me? What would happen? So many questions but I didn't have an answer to any of them. Maybe I would have some answers after tonight.

There is only one way this pain can go away.

I went to my bedside drawer. I started rummaging through my things, not finding what I was looking for. I was about to give up until I saw it hidden in the back. A razor. I never thought I would actually use this and I don't even know how to but there is always a first time for everything.

I took it out of my drawer and I just stared at it. This little thing could change my life forever and there was no going back. I got a tight grip on it and I pressed it gently on my left wrist. It was touching my skin but not going in. as I was about to dig the razor in someone knocks on my door. In a panic I throw the razor inside the drawer again and shut it tight not wanting whomever it is to see it.

"Yes?" I lay down on my bed and situate myself as if I was just sleeping. The door knob turns slowly and the door opens just a little so I can see who it is. Caroline's head appears and she has her phone pressed to her ear. I think she forgot that I could still hear or she actually thought I was asleep because she kept on with her conversation.

"Yes, Harry you can come over but first I need to tell my maid to leave for the day." There was a pause and then she resumed talking again. "Yes it will only take a few minutes; I'll text you when she leaves. Ok bye, love you."

I hoped she would just close the door and leave but as usual that didn't happen.

"I know your awake" Caroline, or 'mum' says to me. Uh, no I am not...

"What do you want?" I say opening my eyes, not that I want to be anywhere near awake right now. I would much rather be asleep, forever.

"I need you to leave for the night, go see some friends."

"MUM I DON'T HAVE ANY FRIENDS YOU DON'T LET ME GO TO SCHOOL" I yell.

"Do not raise your voice at me young lady, go for a walk"

"ALL NIGHT?"

"Yes"

"Fine I will call Stacey and go to her house."

"Alright"

With that, my own mother walks out of my room and out of the house. Not even noticing that 'Stacey' doesn't exist. If she honestly thinks I am going to leave, then she has another thing coming. She can't tell me what to do forever and I want to meet Harry, so I am going to meet Harry whether she likes it or not.

And as we all know, she isn't going to like it.

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After sitting on my bed doing absolutely nothing I finally hear the door start to make that crack noise it makes when it is opening. I jump out of my bed, bracing myself to meet Harry for the first time. Walking out of my room, I have clear view of Caroline and Harry standing there, not doing much of anything.

"Hello! You must be Harry" I say walking up to them, and might I say Harry is...Cute... Why he with a 32 year old, old lady?

"Yes!" He says looking at me.

"Umm.. Harry this is..."

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