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chapter 9 | Spicy night

— Next day —

March 12th, 2024.

5:30 am.

My morning alarm resounds through the room, my body rolling onto the mattress instantly to lie down on my back and reach my phone out. Feeling the comfort of her body against mine, I quickly reach to stop the alarm from ruining my mood. I then turn back towards y/n, embracing her tightly and nestling my head in the crook of her neck.

The warmth of her body in the morning, when I was used to spending all my nights and days all by myself, is like living again. I love this feeling so much.

No matter how much I would want to stay here, I press a kiss on her neck and open my eyes, gazing at her morning face I never got to see. A sense of peace brings a smile to my face, and I brush her cheek, press a delicate kiss on her lips, and then leave the bed.

I'm really not in the mood to work today; I barely slept last night and feel the lack of energy in my body. I'm used to working out, but this time this was totally different.

I remain seated on the edge of the bed, picking up my phone to check my texts and schedule. I feel so worn out that my eyes can barely focus, and my phone feels exceptionally heavy.

As the boss, I could take a day off, but it wouldn't be fair to y/n if she had to go to avoid raising suspicions. I heave a sigh and check on her behind me, leaning over to run my hand through her hair before standing up.

I decide not to wake her up but to let her sleep here and have a day off. I can already tell she must be exhausted, and her body must be aching. I adjust my sweatpants and make my way to the bathroom, where I plan to have my usual morning routine.

I'll still have to cook breakfast despite never doing so when I am alone. She is here today, so I want to make sure she eats well.

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6:40 am.

After cooking breakfast, I walk back up the stairs, the food ready on the dining table. I enter the bedroom and head towards y/n, who is still sleeping. In a sweet and gentle way, I bend over her and wake her up.

"Y/n..." I rub her stomach from over the blanket, going as tenderly as possible. Softly, she opens her eyes, her messy hair putting a smile to my face as she tries to adapt to the morning light.

"Hmm..." she grimaces and rubs her eyes.

"I cooked some food for you, but I need to leave for work," I smile at her and caress her cheek. "And Mister Jeon allows you to take a day off to recover from last night."

"What...? Why didn't you wake me up, Jungkook?" she complains and seeks for her phone. "Because I want you to rest. Now stop annoying me by arguing and just keep sleeping if you need; I packed the food in small Tupperware in case you wanted to sleep longer."

"But..." she drops her head on the pillow, huffing as if I had done something wrong. "Shut up and sleep," I act rude and bend over her, cup her cheeks, and press a kiss on her forehead before walking away. "Feel at home here, everything is yours," I let out on the way outside, making sure she won't be afraid to use anything in here, and I then leave to not hear her complaining.

I honestly would have liked to stay here all day long to take care of her, but I have to go to work. I cannot stop acting that way.

The main obstacle preventing me from fully embracing this feeling of 'love' is my constant uncertainty about what I am to her. What if I'm nothing but just her fuck buddy? Someone she wants only to have sex or please her? No matter the appearance and image I give myself in front of most people, it's fake. I am not that type of dominant man who bangs a lot of girls when he wants to; this isn't me. I only pretend to be like that to not be seen as weak and vulnerable.