My firsts

My first kiss

I wrote about this in another book as well.

I met this guy through my friend. HE WAS CUTEEEE (and still is ) ;) He had a great personality. Literally the dream guy. Anyways. The second I saw him, I was like ''DAMNNNN'' We started talking and he saw the cuts on my arm and asked what they were. (in brazil its rare to find a person who cuts) I lied and I said my cat gave me them everytime I gave her a bath. Well this other kid told him that they were obviously self harm and he bacame sad and he talked to my friend about it. HE SAID HE LIKED ME. I freaked out and the next day my friend told him about my crush on him. He didn't say much to me about it.

september 21

So, two of my friends, my cousin and I were planning to watch 'IT chapter two' (they dubbed it so its in portuguese) so they got me to invite him. Little did I know that movie theatres in brazil are FUCKING HOOKUP SPOTS.

When the movie started he held my hand and I put my head on his shoulder ( in brazil there is a lot more physical contact and we knew we liked each other) He put his arm around me and we cuddled. He started to play with my hair and he kissed my head. At this point I was like ''well shit. ima do something wrong and he wont talk to me again.' but also ' i kinda wanna kiss him'

I KID YOU NOT!!! THIS IS HOW IT WENT DOWN

I turned to him and said '' im sorry if i do something wro-'' He leaned in and kissed me. like we made out. i was so nervous and he could tell so he whispered in my ear 'relax' and we kissed again. then we cuddled and he was grabbing my thigh. I looked up at him and we kissed but only my stupid hair got in the way and i had to pull away to get it out of my face. He started to kiss my neck and i felt shivers down my spine. (no. he didnt give me a hickey. he respects me) we then kiss again but i tense up. he tells me to relax and i honesly tried, but i didnt want to fuck it up. the movie ends and we all go out of the theatre. i tell the guy that that was my first kiss and thats why it wasnt good. "what do you mean! i liked kissing you'' he said that and i was like :) :0 ;) :D

then i left with my cousin . I PROMISE THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED

So yeah. That was my first kiss.