MEETING AN OLD PERSONAGE SOUL

I woke up in the middle of the garden standing wearing a blue dress. I look around and try to remember why I am here. "Did I sleep walk again?" I ask myself "I'm too old for this." I exclaimed. When I look around again I saw an alley so I walk there carefully and that's when I realize it is winter day. I keep on walking and walking as if I am not affected by the cold weather.
Along the way I meet this lady and she looks like 20 years younger than me. Sitting in the middle of the alley beside her is a white pocketbook seems like her Diary. I approach her and when I meet her eyes I can see the feelings that are untold . She stood up and walk leaving there the pocketbook, I grab it and call her "Miss, you left something.", she stop and slowly turn around I give it to her with a genuine smile. "I- I- Thanks", she seems confused on what to say. I pat her shoulder and said "If you want to say something, I can be your listener." she smiled coldly. I lead the way back to where I saw here earlier, I sit and so she is. She hand me the pocketbook without a word and I look at her puzzled on why she gave it to me,  "I just want you to keep this pocketbook for me and when I walk away it's up to you whether you open it or throw it." she said and I am very confused at that moment. "Do you feel broken and empty?", she started "I do", I replied "I meet this one person and I can tell he is the one for me. He did everything to make me feel special and loved, I did the same way too. We treasure all the memories that we shared. He love me and I do love him too. We've been together for 7 years and hoping to last longer." she said with happiness in her voice and it seems like it happened yesterday "I am really blessed to have him, to be part of his life and to be the one he asked for. I love him and I tried my best to be prepared in the future and so he do. I can hear the ringing of the bells and I can see the flower that blooms in the future " she stop and look in the sky, I copy her action "but fate is not on our side he left me for good, someone stole his happiness and he stole mine too. My love was lost together with him. I never expected it to be this way all I did was to love him unconditionally but at the end I was left broken into pieces. The clear glass that I keep and take care of was already broken and I don't know how to fixed it. I can't live without him, I can't see myself continuing my journey alone and empty. Is this what fate wants me to feel? Is this how my life was written? If yes then I don't want this, He will not comeback, he will be there sleeping forever.I lost half of my life, I lost it." she started crying I didn't say a word and let her cry until she stop "It's been a month that he is not with me, it's been a month that our story has been ended." she continue and cry silently "It is just his life that was been taken not yours. It is just his journey that has been stopped not yours and it is his fate not to be with you and not yours." I replied and she look at me while I am looking the sky "What do you mean?" she asked "You love him so much, I can feel it. You need him because he is your strength, I can prove it but do you think it is not too much?" I look at her "It's not yet the end of your journey alone." I look back in the sky "He is not on your side physically but he will always be at your side in good and in bad times because he is living in here" I pointed my heart "Our life is like a story that we always read, we can be an author of our own story. You may feel down right now but if you want to stand and be the best version of yourself you can make it. It's a matter of your choice and your dedication to stand alone. If you choose to continue on what you are right now you will end up suffering but if you choose to fight and be stronger you will see happiness and satisfaction at the end." as I said those words I look at her and smiled "I've been there and I made my choice. I choose to be stronger because I have him with me. I continue my journey even if it is hard but still I made it. I found myself a long the process and I can tell this is the best version of me. I trust myself that I can make it and here I am now happy and contented even if I met a lot of storms before but I still found myself fighting." she look at the grass and suddenly she stood up she face me and said "If you did it, I can do it too." I giggled as she said those words, what a good personality she showed to me right now unlike earlier "I know your here and always be here" she pointed her heart while looking up "Guide me together with God as I continue my life." she said as if the sky is talking to her "Thank you" she look at me and hug me. When she walk away she gave me her last sweetest smile while waving. I feel delighted after that encounter, I know in the future you can make it. "It is just a trials and there are a lot of them coming" I whisper.  While standing there waiting for her to fade I decided to continue my walk but I stumble on something and when I look at it, it's her pocketbook. I pick it up and check the cover page, it is a sketch of a boy and a girl I smiled it seems familiar. I slowly open the pocketbook and saw the front page. Tears are falling and my heart is sinking as I read it, the feeling of being alone, the feeling of being empty and the feeling of trying to fill the emptiness and put color in to it is crushing me as I trace each letters of the word.

Mi Diario
(My Diary)
LUCY BLAKE

That was me 15 years ago, fighting alone and trying to continue my life with positivity even if the sea of pain is drowning me. After all of those pains and suffering in my life I can tell I am now happy and contented on what I have today, I grew stronger and became better. I fall but I stood up and keep going. Its a matter of how you see life and how you take it. I am not here in the past to change it instead I am here to look at myself how far I've been able to go. I will not forgot my past and I will try my best to be stronger in the present. This is now the best version of LUCY BLAKE leaving this saying "Who you are before is not who you are right now, there is always a best version of ourselves."