My teenage fantasies

The everyday drill

I wake up early in the morning as early as 5am i start getting ready for school.As my family members also need to get ready.i put on my uniforms and i go downstairs for breakfast.My mom always shouts at me for always putting on my earphones and listening to music,my stepdad thinks i am a useless teenager.My parents are against teenagers i wonder if my dad thinks the same.

I am a 16year old girl,my dad left me and my mom for another family,l now have a stepdad he is not too bad.l don't know if it's depression that i suffer from or its actually loneliness.
I have my best friend called chelsea we have a lot in common it feels as if we got the same soul but the difference between me and her is that boys love her,it's like everywhere she goes boys notice her and they love her so much.No boy knows me at school except for my classmates which is actually funny.I feel invisible both at home and school.

I blame this on my father because if he was here maybe i wouldn't go through such things in my life.

At school:
The main thing that i do at school is to focus and mostly teachers don't even know me in their classes but it's okay they really don't have to.l do my work so that l won't get unnecessary attention from the teachers.During break time i sit with chelsea my best friend whom l mentioned earlier and her boyfriend Stephan joining us,he is one of the coolest guys at school.l really don't mind being a third wheel because i don't actually pay attention to them,l just eat and i will be putting on my earphones.

I wonder what i did in this world no one deserves to be as lonely as i am.

Cameron:
Yesterday i was walking to the hall and l didn't pay attention to where l was going and i accidentally bumped on Cameron Kentbell.We both fell and girls at my school looked at me with eyes full of hatred but i didn't mind because l get those lots of times.My science teacher sent him to come and call me in my classroom and the way it happened really surprised me.He entered my classroom and girls started screaming and acting nice,then he said i NEED raven people were shocked but not chelsea because who knows why.
I used to love cameron let me say l used to crush on him but then it eventually faded as he never noticed and he had a girlfriend whom he loved.
Nowadays cameron always looks at me which gets me thinking but l don't want to get my mind twisted.

Mr & Mrs Rue:
Everyday after school and even on weekends i go and visit mr and mrs rue.Mr Rue is 80years old and Mrs Rue is 78years old.They lost their two kids in a car accident so they don't have kids.
Mr and Mrs Rue are the most kind hearted,wise,sweetest and the most fun old people that i know.The love that they have for each other is very great and that some how makes me believe in love,they are very happy.

When i met Mr & Mrs Rue:
We were at a community gathering for some matter and my parents were not around so i had to go and see what was the issue.As i walked behind this slow old couple(the Rues) the old man dropped his wallet and i picked it up.l ran to their front and i gave him.They both showed me so much gratitude and said,"only a few young people of nowadays would do that".Then they invited me for some tea.
I went to their house.A big vintage mansion beautifully decorated with flowers and every nice thing outside.Days passed and i got really close to Mr & Mrs Rue i couldn't even stay a single day without seeing them.If l ever get angry i would go to them and somehow i find happiness.They both made me so happy and they loved me so much.They are white people and l am black but it didn't really matter.l go for sleepovers and just spent the night with them.l felt like they were my real parents.
They both understood me so well and if l ever had a problem they would happily help me.We go to church together as none of my family members goes to church.I am a whole different person when i am with them.

Evening at home:
I feel better when i have my own space just some private time in my room.My mom will probably call me minutes from now and make me feel useless like i always do.

Reasons why i always listen to music:
-i always find myself as the main character of the song
-i relate to every sad song i listen to
-i feel loved
-helps me overcome problems
-gives me hope that a good boy will come to me one day