Dear Ashton,
You really didn't have to leave, did you? You just wanted to make me suffer. There wasn't an actual reason to make me feel this way, just for pleasure. I know I will never be able to forgive you.
I know you never have and never will feel this way and I hate myself for feeling this way, but I still love you.
I still don't understand why you would do this to me.
I should have seen it coming myself. All the signs were there, I just didn't notice them. You were so close yet so far away.
You would tell me you loved me, but every time I try to remember the happiness I felt I can't . All I can remember are those three meaning less words being said to me. No actual love behind them.
So now I feel this horrible darkness you have carved into my heart.
I don't think I'll be able to trust anyone again. Not the way I trusted you. Maybe someday I will, but for now I won't and it's all thanks to you.
If you ever manage to get this letter I hope you feel guilty for what you did to me. I want you to suffer the way you made me suffer. You will regret the day you broke me. Best part is that you won't even know it was me. See you soon.
-S
