Mutism | Sibling Rivalry √

Chapter 44

The Thanksgiving special is in the making UwU~💖

It might be posted tomorrow, but if we are lucky, maybe later tonight.

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[Previously]

Taehyungs tears fell onto Jihyuns cheeks as he kissed him passionately.
He slowly pulls away with a sob coming out his mouth.
“I’m sorry.. for everything.. I’m sorry..”
He whispers as keeps his hands on Jihyuns cheeks.

Jihyun looked at Taehyung, dizzy. He blinked a few times.
"For.. what..? "

[Continue]

Taehyung looks at him.
“For everything.. I made everything worse for you.. I mean why would I kiss you?
You don’t like anyone so I’m just making everything bad again. God.. maybe I should just die already..”
He covers his face with his hands.
“I’m sorry..”

Jihyun looked down.
"Don't... Say that.. "
He sighed.
"I know you may not believe me, even because of who I am. But I just don't want you to think like that. You did so much for me... And all I've done was.. "
He started to cry.
"Oh my fucking god.. How the hell.."
Tears.. Actual tears.. Not from physical pain but.. Emotionally. He wiped the tears looking away, feeling anger.

Taehyung shakes his head.
“What have I done for you? All I’ve done was get in your way.. all my family members are either dead or they hate me.. and then no one loves me. Jihyun it’s a fucking pattern..”
He wipes Jihyuns tears away.

"Taehyung.."
He sighed.
"I know I was faking some feelings but.. Those times when we met and when you recorded me.. Taking me outside.. Basically you created a childhood I wished I had. Being free.. I-It means a lot Taehyung.. "
He looked down.

Taehyung looks at him slowly.
“Was it all fake...?”
He whispers as he slightly bit his lip.
“Do you really not like me? Did you feel anything.. at all?”
He grips the bottom of his own shirt.

Jihyun felt so many things bottling up inside. He burst.
"FUCKING HELL!! YES! YES I DID!!"
He cried.
"I KNOW I FELT SOMETHING.. B-BUT I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT WAS.."
He coughed and continued to cry.
"I-I.. I didn't want to know what it was.. I want to stay.. a sociopath.. Which is why I agreed to being kicked out of the group a long time ago so Hoseok can stop trying to help me.. to stop him from stressing out!! But then I fell apart and joined back because of how hurt Hoseok was... "
Jihyun was shaking in sadness. He then covered his mouth, he didn't mean to say anything..

Taehyung bit his lip.
“You care about Hoseok... am I right..?”
He whispers as he holds Jihyuns hand softly.

Taehyung kept every single emotion away, so he could hear what Jihyun had to say.

"I've known f-for a long time.. He's like a best friend.. "
Jihyun bit his lip, tears flowing from his eyes.
"W-we've done.. A lot of things together.. Most of them was for him to learn about my personality disorder.. To change me.. It's like he knew what was wrong with me since the beginning.. But from all of that we were getting really close.. He ended up liking me.. "
He clenched his jaw.
"I rejected him immediately.. And I know I broke him deeply because he ended up smiling too much.. "

Taehyung looks at him. “...Soulmate. That’s what he used to call you. He would say ‘my own soulmate broke my heart’ and would smile right after... He came home one day, drunk actually, he started yelling at me and I guess he thought I was you.. After that he distanced himself from me and I never got to see him until he dragged me to the gang..."
He sighed.
"You were his soulmate..”
He whispers as all the pieces come together.
“Do.. you like him...?”
He whispers again.

Jihyun looked at Taehyung, slightly shocked, then looked back down, back to being a bit emotionless.
"I-I don't know.. And if I had ever did.. My instincts would give me an excuse not to.. "
Jihyun sighed.

Taehyung nods.
“Do.. Do you have a excuse to not like me..?”
He gently lifts Jihyuns chin with his finger and looks straight into his eyes.

Jihyun nodded slowly, admitting sadly.

Taehyung nods slowly as he lets go of jihyuns face.
“Can.. you tell me why so I don’t have to worry about rejection all the damn time?”
He says softly.

"I-I.. It's not about you Taehyung.. I just... "
He cried silently.
"I don't want to kill you.. "

Taehyung looks at Jihyuns hands.
“How do you know you will kill me? How do you know everything will happen the way you think it will..”
He whispers and wipes Jihyuns tears.

"Because it's happened before Taehyung... It's even happened through history.. "
Jihyun pushed away Taehyungs hands.

Taehyung looks down.
“Give me a chance... please..”
He whispers.
The one piece that’s hanging onto one shread was the last string of hope.

"I-I don't trust myself enough to do anything.. Taehyung.. Believe me.. Please.."
Jihyun continued to cry.
"I even almost killed Hoseok for giving him a small, tiny chance.. "

Taehyung looks at him.
“I trust you. I trust you so much.. I’m not like my brother. Give me a chance to ‘make it right’. Please...”
He cries silently.

"I don't want to kill you Taehyung, I don't want to kill you, I don't want to kill you... "
Jihyun covered his face, crying more.

Taehyung shakes his head.
“You won’t.. I-I won’t push you..but just think about it... I really do love you.. I will fight for you, always and forever..”

Jihyun didn't reply.. He just cried, still not accepting it..

Taehyung nods slowly as he understands. He started to cry.
“May I hug you..?”
He whispers as he cries more.

Jihyun took a deep breath and didn't hesitate. He hugged Taehyung, squeezing him, a bit too hard.
He couldn't stop the tears.

Taehyung hugs back as he closes his eyes.
“Let it all out.. I’m your shoulder that I want you to lean on. I’m here for you Jihyun..”.

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