"Aria I slept with someone this weekend" I blurted before I could change my mind the look on her face hurt me more than anything she looked like someone had just slapped her and I saw the tears fill but she tried to hide it she just looked away not saying anything
"Please Ari please say something" and next thing I know she slapped me right across the face and ran to the bedroom tears running down her face.
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Ariana's POV
I can't fucking believe this I thought to myself sliding down the door crying into my knees how could he do this first he freaks out on me for a fucking piggy back ride then tells me to leave and basically said I was right about us never going to work then he goes and fucks some other girl! What the hell was wrong with him is it his goal to just hurt me every damn time we make up.
"Aria please let's just talk this over." I heard Zayn say from outside the door and I slammed the door open rage going through me like wild fire.
"You want to fucking talk fine talk what the hell do you want!!" I said feeling tears go down my face and seeing the shock in his face made it even better.
"Aria please" he said in a calm voice "I'm so sorry but Kaylee means nothing to me I was just mad I love you Arianna please believe me."
" Well I slept with someone too so we're even!" I said crying again why does he keep hurting me.
"You did what! You are such a fucking hypocrite!" He yelled anger swelling up through him
"I-"
"Don't!" He said trying to calm down
"I got drunk and did it okay! You know why? Because I was fucking hurt Zayn I find out you have a kid so I take off and while I was breaking down Liam comforted me trying to fucking help!And what do you do tell me to fucking leave after a piggy back ride then on top of that you sleep with some slut I'm so over this why do you always try and hurt me after everything is okay again! There you go fucking it all up and make me feel like shit again! Nice Zayn very fucking nice!" I yelled crying even more and he just stood there not saying a word.
"I'm done with this Zayn I can't keep feeling like this." I said an walked away grabbing my stuff and running out the door and someone was there and grabbed me and I screamed not knowing it was Zayn how the hell.
"Aria. Please don't leave me here alone not again. I - I know I'm not easy to love I know im hard to handle and I make bad choices out of anger and I know I hurt you but I swear to god Arianna I never mean to intentionally hurt you I'm broken Aria I have issues and I don't ever know how to control what I'm feeling I just lash out but every god damn second I'm with you I feel myself slowly coming back together. I love you Aria and I will love you tell the day I die and if there is any life after that I will love you then because without you I'm fucking nothing I have nothing I'm sorry I get so mad or I don't tell you anything but you know why because my deepest fear in this world is to loose you Aria I can't loose you I cant take that I'm sorry I get protective but please understand its just cuz I'm afraid you'll leave I'm afraid that you'll figure out that you could do so much better than me. I've lost everything you're all I have left and I know that I'm worthless and you don't need me and I- I can't take it. the thought of life without you is just darkness there's nothing and I don't know how to share my feeling how to describe it but I swear to you Aria you know me more than any soul in this world I'm trying. I'm trying to share my feelings but please let me keep trying dont be done with me yet I know I'm being selfish by wanting you to stay but if there's no you I have nothing." He said tears in his eyes looking vulnerable like a lost puppy I didn't know what to say
"Zayn" is all I said and I jumped into his arms crying and just held him what could I say to that how could I ever leave knowing how much love he has for me he so much more than I ever knew he is so fragile under all those walls he builds up. He seems so damn tough all the time I forget how sensitive he can be.
"I love you my Aria so so much" he said holding me in his strong arms as if I was a little baby.
"I love you too Zayn Always" I said and felt him relax a little.
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Here's a short update it made me so damn emotional holy fuck im dead lol well I'll try to update as soon as I can I'm falling behind so I have tons of hw and my parents won't let me have data mins or WiFi so I kinda have to just sneak it whenever I can but I promise it won't be more than a weeks wait I just need to figure out a plan to get passed them lol love you guys thanks for the votes and reads you guys are amazing!!!! Have a good day xx
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Dark Zayn (Zayn Malik fanfic)
FanfictionArianna lived a normal life just trying to stay out of trouble and get her life together. That is until she meets someone who turns her whole life in different directions.
