Dare you to love me, Deal!

LET THE DEVIL IN

Damn! a student! nakaupo siya sa railing sa 10th floor at biglang tumayo at tumalon everyone screamed in agony as his body slammed the ground causing for it to crack, that was a very powerful hit, nagsimula namang umagos ang dugo mula sa kaniyang katawan.

Now I know who this person is and why Im fascinated to him, fascinated on how annoying he could , for the face of joy in our room is the principal's son, Samael Light  Sonata. I would never imagine him doing this , I would never imagine him bieng sad at all... what happened?

"

....

Samael's perspective:

" naniniwala ako na you have what it takes to be a good student, not jjust that but also a god daughter, you re perseverant and brave kaya maniwala karin sa sarili mo"

i ve been quite the celebrity in our school not the fact that I am the son of the respected school head but because I give clarity for the ones that are lost and teaching them a better way of living to be happy through Christ and the lord.

" Samael, how are you so positive about things? how can you say everythings gonna be alright when everything that surrounds you is fucked up?"

I beamed at her ad patted her head, I closed the bible and cite the wonders that occured at me , wonders that no one fore told.

" because of a revelation , god the almighty father didn't revealed it to me, binuksan ko lamang ang aking talukap, it was then that I realized that god wants us to be free, to our decisions, wants us to choose responsibility and maturity, it felt like my heart was being opened and lahat nang positive thoughts are being jammed inside" 

she crouched her head and cover it with her arms as she starts sobing, she cried as if she had committed a murder to her own mother, she was so hope and helpless.

I leaned closer to her ad embraced her, I let her feel that she's not alone, I am certain that she needs it.

as I was done talking to her , my girlfriend texted me to pick her up at her room , she seems very tired, I shall take a good care of her today!

.......

" what took you so long?! whatever let's just go!"

I scratched my head in shyness , my girlfriend could be a little skittish sometimes , it might be due to anxiety and anger, I really couldn't blame her , she's the daughter of the governor and probably haters are surrounding him like sharks in a single pool.

as we arrived at her residency , I continued on beaming while opening at the backseat door, I threw her a little wave of goodbye yet she didn't reply, she didn't even bother to look at it.

Im not quite sure but it's really her attitude to do that, I dont know what triggers it but its to that.

hearing her slams the door feels like my chest is bieng massacred , ramdam kona uli ang pakiramdam nang nagiisa at giniginaw at naalala ko na putangina! papauwi na pala ako, a home to where ally of mi lies are revealed.

now that I' ve thought about it , I am a big fat hypooooo for saying that everything'll be alright... like most of the people , I really believe in the power of god however, sometimes I just feel....nothing and I feel tired about every single fucking thing!

......

" you were late again! where have you been this time? the woods? the other city? the sea? when will you understand the word -head straight-?"

a cold menacing glare is infront of me, telling me that I messed up again, the hurtful thing is it's not my teacher's glare, nor my classmates or my friends or a random person, it was my father's, of all the person that could be dissapointed at me.

" I had to finish some school jobs father, I-I"

"nonsense, what's the use of your mom if you couldn'tskip those"

I'd protest , however all oofo these talks are going to end nonsensely so I chose to clim upstairs to avoid all negative vibes , I need to read mi bible.

to father, to my family , I am only a misfortune, an accident, an injury that dainted their lives forever, above all the treatment that I got , I still cherish and valued them as much as I do to myself , it isn't foolish , father gave a word that we should forgive those someone we hate.

god's commands, these things are peculiar , even I dare ask, but through all these years , I ve lived to believe that I must follow without hesitations, I must put my mind to it.

..........

" I m sick of you and your excuses Samael! "

" listen, baby I was late because I had to these, it's important, it ll make my future brighter"

"are'nt I part of that future?"

" you are,i-its just  , Im doing this all for you baby"

" all of the dates we missed because of you! it's always had to be you that'll do the research,studying, my god! Samael ! you re even the one who washes the dishes, why? because you don't fucking ask for assistance"

" wait, where a-are you going?"

" get away from me! for your future? well build that future without me cause Im done, with you, with all of you!"

to me , I accomplished the few steps of my dream , to her, she's not been a priority .

tinalikuran niya ako as If I m a stranger that she doesn't know

I called out for her name, I cried for it but she wont turn back

"please"

every steps she takes  I feel as if time has froze

"dont"

everytime she she produces a sound, I could hear my heart beat aswell as if the two of ours are in inunison

I feel as If im bieng torn apart and it hurts, it really realy hurts.

-to be continues