Jumping

think I might kill myself

"just kill yourself"

"FREAK"

"You don't belong here, loser!"

I think I might kill myself... I don't really know how I feel.. would anyone even miss me when I'm gone? I can't do all of this alone... everyone thinking that I'm ok, ever since I was a kid I've been feeling lonely. have a bad thought and it never goes away, but I would never tell anybody noway. never ask you how I felt no one ever seemed to care. yes I made it hard to tell but still nobody's ever there. does nobody ever think of me. do you know I really live in hell? does nobody really see how I feel about myself? do you understand the way I feel inside? probably because you never look me in the eyes. there's a lot of things in my brain, there's a lot of things I hide. there's a reason I stay up overthinking every night. there's a reason that I cry, there's a reason that I'm sad. there's a reason that I feel like I don't have a mom and dad. there's a reason I'm alone. there's a reason I'll be gone. there's a reason I'll never fully feel the way I want. what are these emotions? sadness? anger? emptiness? yes.. all of those.

I need help. I need friends. don't need wealth. don't need fans. I need love. I need care. I need someone to be there. I had to do it alone, but then I cut everyone out so I take the blame I am what I found and I feel insane, all this time.

I can't do this anymore. no one's here to stop me. I'm all alone. ill be gone soon enough...