"You still hate parties with loud music."
Finally I found her in balcony.
She turned towards me and made her favourite cringy face.
"What are you doing here?"
"The thing I do in all parties. Looking for you."
I walked towards her and stand beside.
"So running away."
She took long sigh and then looked at me.
"I tried Kartik but its too difficult for me to cope up with that noise."
That made me laugh she actually feels parties as noise, "Noise.... You're surely something else.."
"I think, I don't belong with you all."
"Its not about belong Tanvi, its about your choices."
"You feel it as noise because you always in search of peace and your never found it there"
She was totally busy admiring the above stars but I know she was listening to me this was our every party moment. She will runaway and my duty to look for her.
"People look for peace to get away from frustrations not sure how they can found it in those"
"That's why I said tanvi it's not about belong it's about choices. Why do you think all this guys are also looking for peace in here. They might be hiding themselves from own truth."
That made her to break that one trance and she looked at me.
"Do you think I am hiding myself?"
"Not sure, you should look for that answer."
Now she looks worried, she is always like this. Overthinker but yet something else.
I held her hand and stroke it with my thumb.
"But I am pretty sure you feel peace in this cold wind, sky full of stars, oceans, words, colors, that's why you always ran away to quiet and lonely place."
"Why sometimes I feel peace is delusional?"
"I think it's really delusional. Peace is not thing we can touch or feel with our skin. Our heart fools us, hey it's here this is the peace."
"Now you are just talking stupid."
"Let me give you an example. When we were kids our parents used to tell us that person become star once he is dead."
"Today I know it's totally stupid but still whenever I miss my dad I look up into that stars and look for his face. I know he is not there but I make fool of myself to give small moment of happiness."
"Making fool of yourself don't you think kind of hiding."
"No Tanvi it's not hiding, it's your heart making a choices for you feel every thing around you."
I think this made her calm. She was smiling right now with dimples on her chick.
"How peace one single feeling has different definition in everyone's life.
For you peace is the moment you standing on stage after the dance performance and melody of applause."
"And look at me I want to keep everything to myself. Just want to spend every moment in quietness of nature."
"And its best defines you and us."
"A sound of applause surely brings peace in my life. But at this right moment my heart is happy tanvi. It's a peace, under these blanket of stars, cold breezes and you beside me."
Its our peace.
