What Happened After I Killed Myself.

Ever wondered what it would be like to kill yourself?
What would happen to all the people around you? May it be your bullies, your family, or your friend. Well I did. I killed myself and got to see what happened to everyone.
My big sisters and Mom cried, my Little brothers were in shock, my stepdad couldn't believe it. My dad, stepmom, and half sisters came to the funeral crying. My dad looked awful. He blamed himself for not being there for me. Blamed my mom for not being there for me. She broke down. It wasn't her fault. I hide everything from her. EVERYTHING! My big brother and sister couldn't believe that I had done something like that. Like this. The bright bubbly girl they knew had killed herself. They cried about how they didn't get to spend enough time with me. They hadn't even seen me drive yet. 15. I was 15.

The kids in school felt bad. A few of my friends cried. Other cried for attention. The rest felt sad, but they didn't know me. They never really tried. After a week or two, they all went back to normal life. As if nothing had happened.

When my best friend from my old school found out, she tried to kill her self too. She blamed herself for not being there for me. For not trying harder to be. Her mom didn't know what to do. She was the main reason we couldn't see eachother. My friends from that town all cried. Even some people that didn't fully know me cried, and not for the attention.

After a year, most of my closes friends had become addicted to drugs, if the hadn't already died. My mom became unstable and my adopted brother and sister got taken away, and seperated. My twin brother completely isolated himself. He didn't talk to anyone, he only played his games. My stepfather's moved out. He relapsed to be an alcoholic.

If you think you life doesn't matter, think again. It matters to a lot more then you think. Plus, imagine what future you have lying ahead of you. don't ruin all the things you could be, fight for what you want to be! AND NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!!