Get
Really
Excited
About
Today
How many times a day do you contemplate your life? Do you wake up in the morning and contemplate how shitty your day is going to be? SAME. well, welcome to being human.. So you're probably thinking that this will be a amazing self help book that'll inspire you to change your life and it'll inspire you to get up and just get ur day movin the "right way" .. but than again , what is the right way? The way mom and dad taught you? The way school taught you? Living by the law? What is the "right way" ? I always thought that living the right way meant , waking up in the morning dropping down to my knees and praying with every piece of me , brushing my teeth having breakfast and than going too school or work or whatever it is.. Well i fucked up. I stopped school, i stopped work and i started living my life like i was a young girl like I AM. But i went to far, i forgot to be excited about the day i forgot to love hard and i forgot to be grateful about the days ahead, I stopped being excited about the day, cause truly , i hated waking up in the morning. I hate the feeling of how great sleep is, how amazing it is and how all the pain is just non-existent while my eyes are closed for those few short hours, than i wake up and BOOM.. PAIN.
Wanna know how i learned to cope with that darkness? Every morning i stare at myself in the mirror and have a full conversation with myself, im checking in with me, im checking me out, im healing the relationship i have with myself, because THAT is the key to TRUE HAPPINESS. True happiness is being able to heal yourself, without the help of others, being able to heal yourself is being able too be okay with your own company, without feeling like something is missing, like something is wrong.. Being comfortable in your own skin. Which is almost impossible with the standards of today, society will only accept you if your slim with a fat ass and some big juggs that look like they weigh down your body, society wants PICTURE PERFECT EVERY DAY. Well sorry society, but i am 175 lbs with boobs that do weigh down my body and my ass... PANCAKE. LMFAO. SORRY SOCIETY. You have to learn to accept what you got, got to learn to accept what god painted u to look like, u are perfect in his image and fuck what anyone else gotta say... those picture perfect girls are nothing but that PICTURE PERFECT, they have to maintain a certain look to be accepted, and that SUCKS. I would hate to have to be glammed up for 4-5 hours a day.. loosing so much sunshine... POINT BEING (before i go off topic like always) .. be comfortable in your own skin, and i know its alot easier said than done... but aye .. fuck it... might as well give it a try right? try.. having a conversation with yourself, even if u feel like it makes u look stupid.. FUCK IT. DO IT. Nobody is in control of your feelings but your own damn self, live how u wanna live.. even if u enjoy getting glammed up 4-5 hours a day, to EACH THEIR OWN. But regardless be happy with what God gave you..
GET
REALLY
EXCITED
ABOUT
TODAY
G.R.E.A.T
YOU ARE READING
F*** Depression , Fly Away
Spirituala short self help journal that maybe you can relate too, maybe a friend who needs some positive words, or someone who wants to just hear my journey on what has been helping me HEAL.
