choking hazard :sariano:

~one~

Samy Chuha
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It felt weird, honestly. The first time Mariano Castano choked me. His hands are huge in general. So to feel that his hands literally grips the entirety of my damn neck was terrifying.

I slowly got used to it, him slowly doing it more and more. He would do it to either be funny, shut me up, or when he would get angry. I would usually laugh it off, or my hand would shoot up to grip his wrist. He did it more and more in public, i would mostly get embarrassed. I always shooed him off or tell him to get off me.

Lets get to the basics. Mariano Castano is my best friend of maybe over two years now. We met in Middle School. He was the gangster that always threw up gang signs and whatnot. I didnt want to be by those type of people. He had another plan, though. He would usually always fuck with me, grabbing up my hair and yanking it to force me to look up at him. Or whenever I didnt want to do something he'd always grin and count to five, if i didnt get up by that time... He would tackle me and tickle me until I cried.

I didnt think much of it at all. But when we got into being sophmores he grew to be more rough with me, but not the rude or mean kind of rough. He was a few inches taller than me and was loud, while I was quiet and nice to anyone u crossed paths with. He wasnt typically a nice person to other people, but he was nice to me.

Like I said, the first time being choked by him was a surprise to me. He did it when he got irratated at me and I wouldnt shut up when he told me to shut the fuck up. I was standing above him yanking and messing with his hair and hoodie. He had shot up and gripped up my neck, I had gasped out and immediately shot my hand to his wrist. He glared down at me, once again saying in a deep voice to shut up. I had nodded, wanting him off of my neck. He slowly nodded back in conformation, and took his hand off my neck to go back to whatever he was doing on his phone.

I had walked out the room immediately, my face red as my mind was running on what the hell just happened.

But now, I've gotten used to it. I don't mind it usually, but for some reason I'm feeling kind of weird whenever he does it. I would do whatever he asked so he doesnt get irratated and grab my neck, otherwise I would be red in the face and touching on my neck all day.

Mariano was staying over for the weekend, but not even an hour after he got here he got mad at me for burning chocolate. I mean, I was stupid for even trying that. He had walked into the kitchen and gripped up my neck." Come on dude, burning chocolate now, are we?" He said with a weird ass smile on his face. I was currently in the bathroom, rinsing of my face and trying to get rid of intrusive thoughts.

I have no idea whats going on with me.

I walked out the bathroom after a good fifteen minutes and seen Mar on my bed watching tik toks." Whatcha doing, dude?" He asked me, his eyes still pinned on the screen. I shrugged." Nothing much. About to call it a night." He finally looked at me with a raised eyebrow." Want me to go on the couch?"
"You chose what you wanna do."
"Well," he coughed, sitting up." I'll sleep on the bed as well." I nodded, not really having a problem with it since he was basically family to me.

I grinned, hopping on the bed and inside the covers." Its so fucking comfortable." Mar looked down at me snuggling in the covers and laughed.
" Youre cute." He said simply, lifting a hand to pat my head. I lifted my head and smiled, going back under the covers. My eyelids were getting heavy, I soon found myself asleep.

Mariano Castano
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Goddamnit, why is this boy so dense?

Well technically, why did I fall for a boy who's so innocent that he doesnt even know what a virgin is? Im freaky as fuck, and he doesnt know jackshit. I looked at him and chuckled, he was sleeping. He looked adorable honestly, and I wouldve loved to fuck that up. But you see.... My advances could only go so far. It took him a while to even get used to me choking him, and he doesnt even know what that really means.

Im happy with who I chose, I'm just not happy that he doesnt know literally anything. He's smart, real smart but hes retarded to all the shit I do to him. He turns a blind eye, thinking its for fun. I couldnt help but get mad. Like, why wont you notice me? I may not be the best boyfriend but ill do anything for Samy.

I didnt even know I would be gay. There was alot of times that I was denying it and hooked up with girls, along with ignoring Samy. It hurt to do that though, and found myself always coming back to this innocent boy. I would always sleepover, just so I could admire him while he was sleeping in peace. It wasnt weird to me, I just loved him that much.

He might think I just choke him when im angry, but theres so much more to that. Sometimes I would grip up his hair just for him to look me in the eyes. I would love when he turned red In public, shooing me away and scolding me like I was a child. Samy really never left my mind. Everyday I was thinking about him, thinking about how I could spoil him stupid and fuck him silly.

I may be the loud type but I would never express my feelings, Samy never seen me cry, and I plan on keeping it that way. I wish these feelings would go away, but ive had them for years on end. They wasnt going away no time soon.

I was interrupted in my thoughts when he moaned and turned to face the wall, me licking my lips and setting my phone down. This boy is literally perfect in every way to me, I never had a bad thought about him. I also turned on my side and moved to pressed myself against him, wrapping my arm around his waist to bring him impossibly more closer. I buried my face in his neck and breathed in his iconic cinnamon scent, sleepiness now overcoming me.

I wish I could be this close to him with him knowing I love him to death.