I fell for my teacher ( RM / Namjoon ff)

Chapter 5

Y/N POV

It's the first day in my new collage, "one year left, you can do this"
I thought to myself looking at my cold self reflecting on the mirror.

It's true that I got better after I started dating namjoon or should I call him joonie, he really hated that nickname unlike now, hearing it from me makes him smile for some reason.

Returning to the point, It's true that I got better but still I can't forgive myself just yet.

At the collage

I, as expected, didn't recognize anyone, which is good because I can have a peaceful mind and thoughts that no one can interrupt.
I sat down in the second raw, opened my book and waited for the professor to come

The professor:" hello class we are starting..."
I kinda recognized the voice so I shoot my head towards him having an eye contact

We whispered at the same time
Me:" holy crap"
The professor:" holy crap"

Yes, it was Nomjoon! The same Namjoon I know...

We suddenly realized that we are still in class so we both tried to be as normal as possible
He continued to teach avoiding to look at me, but for me, I acted cold as always

Many thoughts crossed my mind during the lecture

" what will happen to him now"

" will he leave me "

" Does he still in love with me "

" oh no his job what will I do now "

And many other thoughts consisted of whys and whats and worries

After class

Namjoon:" you are dismissed"
After that everyone left but me, Namjoon kept quiet not knowing neither how to begin nor what to speak

Me:" sorry "
Namjoon looked at me confused
Namjoon:" what for?"
Me:" for everything, Namjoon this is serious you can lose your job "

He then brought his hand to my cheek and replied
Namjoon:" losing this relationship will break us both and I'm not ready to give you up for some stupid ass job"
Me:" I know it will be hard but we can't do this, it's wrong..."
Namjoon:" no what you are trying to do is the wrong thing, don't even think about it "

His voice... I can hear the pain in it, he knows that this is not going to work but why is he still fighting?

Me:" Namjoon.."
He interrupted me
Namjoon:" DONT! When you say my real name instead of my nickname I really feel how serious it is, I will fight for you Y/N you are my one!!"

I put my hand over his
Me:" yes and you are my one too, but this isn't easy and it will not be comfortable"
Silent, it's all that you can hear until he spoke again
Namjoon:" ok... What about we try being together in secret, and if we stayed uncomfortable with it, then we can figure out what to do "
Me:" but..."
Namjoon:" just please let it be for now "
Me:" one month "
Namjoon:" two"
I glared at him
Namjoon:" ok one but you have to try too"
I nodded announcing my agreement

Me:" I have to go now, see you later "
He picked my lips by a slight and quick move
Me:" we still at college!!!"
Namjoon:" yeah I know that's why it was a quick one"
I blushed so bad by his embarrassing answer, how can he speak like this without getting embarrassed!
Me:" I can't believe you"
I said in disbelief earning a giggle in return

At the cafeteria

I was checking out my Instagram when a guy suddenly came to my table, he introduced himself
:" hi I'm Jimin it's nice to meet you "
Then he offered his hand to shake but I just ignored him which is why he took his hand back

Jimin:" ok that was weird but it's ok I get it you don't like strangers touching you"
I stayed quiet even though I wanted to tell him that it's not it, it's just that he was too excited and I simply wanted him to go away

:" JIMIN"
Someone yelled his name so he got up and said
Jimin:" ok excuse me and my dumbass friend but I have to go"
I ignored him again which made him just leave normally