Dear Dan,
By the time you read this, I'll be long gone. My body's in the bathroom, don't bother to check. I know that you were my best friend, and I was yours, which means this might hit hardest to you. I just don't feel like I deserve to go on anymore.
For the last few years I haven't been myself. I haven't been as happy as I usually am. Suddenly I found myself thinking of how much easier everyone's like would be if I just died. I guess we'll see soon enough.
I'm sorry. I know you'll miss me, and trust me I'll miss you, too. Remember Vegas? Those were the times.
I'm sorry for what I put you through. I was having trouble, but I didn't want you to struggle with me. Please understand that I do care about you, and I did this because of that. I want you to live a happy life.
I want you to find a girl, fall in love, get married, have kids. I want your kids to have kids, and I want you to grow old together. I want you to live your life, even if it doesn't include me.
Even though this is a note of my passing, and it won't matter in a week or even a few days, I don't want you to share this with anyone.
I want everything I write to you to be ours.
Please continue the gaming channel. Keep the name, even if you do need to find a new co-host. Leave my channel be. I made a video, though. If you could put that up, I'd love it.
I'm crying as I write this. Sorry if my tears cloud my words. Keep lion safe. I know this is too long to be a suicide note, but I don't care.
I want you to remember me. Please.
I'm so sorry, Dan.
Goodbye.
Your Little Lion Friend,
Phil.
