Destiny

LIE

Major trigger warnings. Read at your own risk

YOONGI'S POV

"Yoongi hyung. This is my cousin Miso. She will be your girlfriend for the time being. " Namjoon introduce me to a cute looking girl with blond hair. She smiled at me before shaking hands.

"So you are telling me to act all lovely dovely with her in front of Yuri? " I asked still not sure about the plan. It sounds stupid.

"For the 100th time yes. Why is he asking the same thing? This gives me a headache. " Taehyung groaned before banging his head on the table.

"It's hyung to you, brat. And you will end up with a concussion if you hit your head one more time like that. " I said pulling his head up by his hair. He gave me a 'go away' look and fell onto table again.

"OK so are you ready. " Jin asked giving Taehyung A side glance.

"I'm still not sure about this hyung. I don't feel good" I mumbled. I don't like this idea a bit. And the fact that Yuri is suicidal made my doubts double.

"Oh come on. This is a perfect idea. It always works in tele dramas. " Hoseok exclaimed. I looked around and noticed everyone is giving me the look. I sighed in defeat and accepted my fate.

I'm sorry Yuri. But I want you so bad

"OK I'm in"

YURI'S POV

It's lunch and I was dragged into the cafeteria by a very excited Jisoo.

"They are nice and popular. You're going to love hanging out with them" she said when they exited the classroom. But deep down I knew I'm never going to enjoy this.

"Jisoo! Over here " a high pitched voice shouted from the very middle bench in the cafeteria where they had everyone's attention.

I was dragged again and pushed into the bench.

Don't act like a bitch. You were willing to do this. I sighed.

"Soo this is your friend? " asked Taehee aka queenka of our school. I still wonder how Jisoo managed to be friends with them.

"Yeah, this is Yuri." they smiled showing their lipstick stained teeth. Eww...

They went on introducing themselves but I didn't bother to remember them knowing I'll forget them soon. That's my nature. I can't remember people neither their faces nor names.

We talked for a bit mostly they ranting about some hot boys and how they want to fuck them but a certain name caught my attention.

"Did you girls see that Yoongi got a girlfriend? " a red headed girl said putting a full overdramatic expression.

"You mean the Min Yoongi? That hot walking piece of art? " Taehee asked eyes widened. I gagged at the way she described him.

"The same" same girl replied earning gasps from the whole canteen. As on cue Yoongi entered arms intervened with a blond girl with innocent smile. So this is the one Yoongi was talking about! The lucky girl that captured his heart. Jisoo sent me a worried glance and I ignored her. I felt a pang in my chest at how he smiled at her.

You don't have a right to get hurt. It's not like you two were dating. He even rejected you remember? At least be happy for your crush.

I nodded my head and looked back at him. But this time we locked our eyes. He stared at me like he was searching something in me. I felt awkward and broke the eye contact. What's wrong with him? Maybe he is still thinking about what happened on that bridge. Please Yoongi! Forget about it.

They made their way to the food line and the silence that was in the cafeteria broke to hushed whispers probably about the new couple.

"Aww that sucks. I was trying to get into his pants" Taehee huffed and admitted shamelessly. Others gave her a weird look. Then she turned her attention to me.

"Forget about that threat I did earlier. I should have known you are not his type. He is more alive and you are a dead freak. But I'm willing to be your friend. " she said throwing what seemed like a genuine smile. I got a confused look from Jisoo but I shrugged it off. Now that Yoongi and that threat is out of the picture hopefully I can have a normal high school life

Hopefully

They day carried away but Taehee's words still burned my heart and mind
'He is more alive and you are a dead freak'

She is true. You don't deserve him. You are worthless, you are trash, you are a mistake just a bother to others.

"No, stop! " I let out a hushed whisper. Ever since that suicide attempt this inner voice was killing me. That got the best of me slowly poisoning my mind dragging me to a dark pit of self-hatred. And the worst is I knew but still choose the voice over my brain.

I pushed open the door to girls' bathroom and went straight to a stall without looking around. There I went back to my savior. Only thing that saved me from going fully insane. Only thing gave me hope for a next day. Only this reminded me I'm alive with that stinging pain. My cutting

I still had fresh cuts from the morning which still had dried blood on them. Same fate with my blade which had brown spots with dried blood. But who cares. That look fascinating.

I closed my eyes and slid the blade across my forearm. with few cuts I became vigorous and I felt the blade slit open old wounds and run on same places repeatedly. The pain felt so right yet so wrong. But I want my mind away from everything. Just because Yoongi saved me didn't make any suicidal thoughts go away. I still wanted to do that but deep down I was afraid. It took lot of courage for me to do that back then but now I chicken out of it. In fact, dying is scary.

Deep in thoughts I didn't realize what I was doing to my arm. I opened my eyes only to be met with a bloody sight. Every inch of my skin is covered in blood and there were pieces of skin and flesh that fully came out. That looked like a scene from a horror movie but I felt something stir inside of me. That sight made my inner demon to lift its head.

And the scary part is I enjoyed the sight. For the last bit of it. I smiled to myself and took a picture of my arm. Blood still oozing out at some places and dripping down to the floor with little thuds. I let out a satisfied moan before washing the floor quickly and wiping my arm.

I opened the door and greeted with the amused face of Taehee. She had her makeup set spread in the sink which I assume she was touching up her makeup. Her eyes trailed down my arms and let out a shriek.

"You really are a freak " she said before digging into her backpack and threw a hoodie towards me.

"Wear this or that sight will give nightmares to your classmates " she said before collecting her things and leaving.

I was stunned. Was that a friendly gesture or hatred. I just shrugged before pulling the hoodie on carefully.

Everything is getting out of hand now

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You can consider the above content as gore if you want(!?)

Anyways sorry for the late update. I was bored out of my mind to even move a muscle 😑

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