The Sub

Let Me Tell You How I Feel!

Four months Cas had worked and never once called Dean.

Dean had hoped he would, Cas was an employee, and as much as Dean wanted Cas, he needed to remain professional. He couldn't go to him ask why he hadn't called, maybe Cas had someone he talked to when he got low. Dean had Sam when he dropped and Meg, so maybe Cas had that too.

Tonight, however, Cas agreed to a public flogging display to show proper flogging technic. Dean was a little annoyed that Cas was doing this with someone else, but he would try to stay professional.

Dean was sitting at his desk in his office when Meg walked in.

"What is wrong with you?" Meg asked, sitting down.

"What are you talking about?" Dean asked.

"Your upset, and I think it has something to do with a new Sub we hired," Meg said, sitting down in the chair.

Dean sighed and leaned back in his chair, she wasn't wrong; it was Cas that was throwing him off his game lately.

"You are right," Dean said.

"You needed to tell him, i know you don't do feelings, but you need to tell him," she said.

Dean looked at Meg and raised an eyebrow, and shook his head he did even know if Cas felt the same way about him, how was he going to say anything to him.

"Suck it up, boss," Meg said, standing to leave the room.

Dean laughed. He knew she was right; he should just talk to Cas, but part of him was unsure, and no one wants to be rejected.

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Cas was getting ready in his room at the club when there was a knock on the door, he yelled for them to come in, he was just finishing putting his harness on when Dean opened the door.

"I'm just checking in," Dean said.

"I'm good," Cas said, not meeting his eye.

Dean walked in a shut the door, he walked over to Cas, who looked down at the floor when he was around Dean, he couldn't help it.

"Cas, you can look at me," Dean said softly.

Cas looked up, his blue eyes full of worry and concern, Dean took Cas' hand and sighed.

"Did I do something?" Cas asked.

"No, Sweetheart, I'm worried about you, and I wanna make sure you can do this tonight," Dean said.

Cas pulled his hand away and sighed he turned his back, to Dean and took a deep breath before speaking.