I couldn't believe it. I actually let my gaurd down. I started to think that this empty feeling inside me was starting to get filled. But somehow that just turned into me being drained more of every ounce of strength I have within me. I now am left on this battlefield with everyone against me. I have no armor or weapons. They might as well have nuclear weapons because no matter what I am going to be stuck here broken and empty. Abandoned at every turn. No matter what I do, I end up being the person who gets thrown away.
You know it's a funny thing. Predicting how you life will play out and seeing it go exactly as you predicted. It's almost like a never ending cycle of whatever your feeling most. I can't stand it. You get yourself stuck in a cycle of pain and you are seriously fucked over. I mean forever. That's what I did, I let myself sink in my pain and it just grew. It never stopped and now I'm stuck in my own trap I practically set out for myself.
