When Our Stories Entwine

Chapter Fifteen - Maggie

⚠️Warning⚠️
If you haven't read the 1st book yet, this chapter has major spoilers so go catch up! 😉
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Maggie -

It's a particularly cold morning in January and the weather outside is bleak. It's as if the sun peeks out occasionally but is afraid to fully immerse our state in its light. The depressing weather matches my mood perfectly as I say goodbye to Jackson and we stand in the doorway holding each other for a few minutes in silence.

I woke up early in an attempt to spend as much time with him as possible before he left.  I made a full goodbye breakfast including an omelet with cheese, green onion, tomatoes, spinach and multiple other ingredients he had sitting around.   I essentially just tossed everything I could think of that might taste good in an omelet then brewed a full pot of coffee. 

I'm not much of a cook but I have to say I was pretty impressed with myself.  Unfortunately, Jack didn't even have a bite, after taking a quick glance he promptly mentioned the mint flavor still in his mouth from brushing his teeth then grabbed a cup of coffee.  No one grabs a cup of coffee if they've just brushed their teeth.   Despite his occasional white lies, I'm going to miss him more than anything.

I'd like to consider myself an independent woman who doesn't need her significant other around at all times, but the thought of being without him for even a few days terrifies me. I'll miss his annoyingly witty banter, his cheeky remarks, his touch and everything that comes along with that. I never once imagined another person could have this effect on me.

People have always come and gone in my life, the only constant has been Bethany.  Even then, I haven't let myself fully depend on anyone else in what seems like a lifetime. But Jack woke me up, grabbed my hand and brought me on the ride of my life then I fell in love with him. Suddenly this crazy diamond eyed boy is now my only constant. He's my sun, the center of my universe and if my orbit is disturbed I'm not sure what would become of me.

When he finally walks out the door I lean my head against the door and close my eyes in quiet desperation. With Jackson gone even only a few seconds I can already feel a difference in the air, I feel as if the oxygen was sucked out of the room and I struggle to regain my breath. I attempt to calm my breathing and shake myself of this ridiculous feeling. Out of the billions of people in this world, I've found my soulmate. A few days can't hurt us if we're in this forever, so why does it feel so wrong being apart from him this time?

Pathetic

I'm being ridiculously melodramatic and I need to shake this feeling off. I look around the kitchen for something to distract myself with and my eyes fall on the fridge.

No Maggie, you will not eat your feelings.

I plop down on the barstool and before I even think of getting ready for the day, I pull out another letter from my father. I notice with a lot of these letters he's written instructions. This one that I've just opened says, "Read this after your first heartbreak."

Since I haven't had his letters the entire time he's been sending them, I assume it's okay to bend his rules and open them out of order.

Margaret,

You're sixteen now, that's about the time I fell in love with your mother. We were young when we met and we were too young when we married, then we had you. I had a lot of growing up to do and even though your mother and I didnt work out, I hope you're still open to finding love.

First loves are always the hardest to get over, they're the ones that sweep you off your feet and take your breath away but usually never last. You may think the world is ending and the pain is too much, but don't worry the pain doesn't last either.