Miss You - Johnlock

Dear John

John,

You know I'm not used to writing letters. This one may be the first I've ever wrote actually. So I hope you're not going to rip it off or to burn it before reading it.

First of all, I'm sorry. I'm trully sorry. I know you won't accept my apologies so soon after the incident but I still beg your pardon.
I promised I would always be there and I would always protect you and Mary. Apparently I lied, because I haven't succeeded in my mission, but it wasn't intentionally. I couldn't expect her to take a bullet for me. But I'm not saying it's her fault. I'm just saying that I think she knew what she was doing and that she did it for you (actually I don't "think", I'm "sure" but I try not to be narcissist).
Let me explain. She knew you when you were in grief, when you thought you had lost me (I'm still really sorry about that by the way), she saw how down you were when you thought I was dead. So she didn't want you to go through that again. Because she loved you (and that's a sociopath telling you that). She thought that maybe her death would be less painful to you than mine. And believe me or not but I would have done the same. I would have taken a bullet for her, thinking about you, your happy couple, and the baby. But it's not about me, right ?

So second, let's talk about me ! Don't burn the letter, humour doesn't really fit in those. It's not about me, it's about you. But a bit about me too. What I'm trying to say is that I miss you. I'm missing us fighting crime together, I'm missing us solving riddles, investigate on crime scenes, finding ourselves in dangerous situations.
I hope someday we will be back together ; the world famous John Watson and his sidekick Sherlock Holmes. I don't mind being the sidekick as long as I'm yours. But I'm not saying you were my sidekick ! You know what ? Forget about that. I just want you back, because you are my friend.

I am sorry again. I hope I haven't ruined everything. I am there for you if you need me. And I would obviously take a bullet for you.

Your best friend,

Sherlock Holmes.