I was working in a consultancy, it's been 7 months I have Joined. It was a day when my senior was had went to his native for some occation. I was the senior who has to take care of few stuffs happening in the office.
Next day morning I entered office with a pleasant mind. Later when I had finished my screening I was about to take a break. I had told few candidates to write an essay for the interview which is going to be held. When I was heading out, my juniors as usual were asking doubts and gave me the essays which the candidates have finished writing. I read an essay of one candidate, it was a very good essay compared to what I have seen from other's. I wanted to see who was the one who wrote the essay. I called out the name, where a candidate appeared in front of me wearing a blue shirt and a red hat. I spoke to him for few minutes and went out. The day passed on. At the same evening I had got few messages from some of my colleague friends stating that he likes to hang out with me. I was ignoring the message and atlast he tried calling me and I had to shout at them. I stopped responding to these messages. After a while I received a message stating that "I love you" from a different number. I called the person and shouted at him and disconnected. I called the person again and asked him how did he receive my number. Then he apologized and said, I will tell you who I am but I should not get angry. Then he said today I came to your consultancy for an interview and he liked me. Then I realized that the previous messages were from some other d....a.... People. Then this guy apologized to me and I adviced him not to do this.
After 2 days I got a call from the same guy and he was telling me he could not forget me and he would like to marry me. I was surprised to hear this. I tried ignoring his messages and calls. He tried contacting me for 3 months, then I started talking to him to know more. I did not believe in love during those days. But still I was talking to him without knowing anything about him. I could not ignore his calls after that, sometimes I was expecting to hear from him.
After that I felt like I was interested in him. The way he spoke and the way he expressed himself I liked talking to him. But still I don't wanted to get involved into these kind of things. I started thinking of him even if I don't like to. I tried explaining him as well.
Days passed for about 2 months. Later he started calling me everyday. He said he was working into marketing and he had done engineering after which he came to Bangalore for career purpose.
Usually when these things happen people get bored after sometime. Same happened to me. I started to divert my mind and tried changing things. But still I could not forget him or ignore him. I made a decision that I don't wanted this to extend and I felt like am giving false hope. Sometimes I don't believe on me for few reasons like
1) what if I loose interest after a while and if I hurt others.
2) what if someone else says the same things and try getting near me or if I change my mind to them.
3) basically I did not have trust on myself even though I knew that he loved me for real.
One fine day I decided to tell him that this is not gonna happen and am not interested as well. But still I have to gain some courage to tell these after talking for such a long time. Later I made up my mind, I told him that I am not interested in him and he is not my type. He felt bad and I even told him that I don't wanted to give him false hope. There was silence after that I couldn't hear anything, I realized had he disconnected the call.
I felt bad for telling him such things but still I couldn't forget him.
Later I received calls from different numbers where I had blocked them and deleted all his contacts. Everything was finished with calls, we did not meet even once.
(Now I realize that we could have gone on a date instead of ignoring 😒)
After which even if I felt like talking to him I did not call him or texted him. I kept my feelings within me. Later my mobile started showing up it was not working and I have to buy a new mobile. After few months I had met many people but i was feeling backed up when people started ignoring me and many happened. Then I tried to take his number from my old mobile contacts but could not find. I tried finding his contacts from the register which was hard. I hardly remembered the day he came for interview. I tried to forget him. But still months passed on where he kept creeping in my mind every few days. I was expecting calls or texts from him. I understand that he has forgotten me😭.
Now what else can I do I tried finding his number from naukri(a portal where candidates update their profile to find a job). But there were many with the same name. I tried with different spellings and different searches. I tried finding his number from my Gmail, noting seems to work. Only way is I have to get some call or text from him. I lost hope. I remember only his name and he is working somewhere in Bangalore and he stays in BTM 1st stage.
Days passed, I had changed my job with a different company. I did not think about finding his contacts after that. One fine day when I saw my colleagues who were in love with each other, I felt lonely. I still remember him, I tried to search his contacts from naukri but still no hope. I prayed to God for once, let him call me and I will never dare to leave him again. I thank God for meeting him for once in my life. I am still waiting to hear from him😌 though I don't even remember his face......
