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So far away

it's been five months since he went
to Beijing ..five freaking months .He is being busy adjusting with everything , making new friends , doing studies,...
And here I am .. missing him terribly ..I always knew this would happen. ..ever since he announced about his study abroad ..I knew I would be pathetic without him .
I am one of those people who can't speak their mind so well. He probably knows it too. Just because I don't say it often doesn't mean I don't love him as much as he does . Otherwise I won't be spending so many years with him . Now I am even bearing the pain of being miles apart ... just Because I want him to do what he wants and see him happy.

Nowadays I work more .I like spending more time in office .I even got promoted to head engineer .He was so happy when I told him that. Little did he know...I worked hard because I wanted to keep myself distracted so that I don't miss him too much .I don't enjoy coming to an empty apartment without that smile ..those hugs ..those sweet words . I come late to apartment just to sleep and eat .

I am volunteering in an animal welfare organization . The weekends when he used to nag me so much to go on sappy dates ...now I spend it with animals ..or sometimes hang out with my gang.

Sometimes I get really get angry at him . Couldn't he study in this country ? Was studying in different country really that necessary ? I know I encouraged him to do that ...but still ...

The sticky notes he used to give me ... about reminding me of dinner , saying cheesy things ..now I am sticking them on the wall in front of my table.. sometime I look at them and smile..
              He is probably making lots of friends there... knowing his friendly nature and gentle nature.. people would love to have him as their friend ..I stopped having insecurities about us since the time he left for China .But I know wherever he goes ..he will be loved .
      That little boy occupies my whole heart ..I wish I could tell him how much I miss him .. How I am adjusting without him .. How badly I want to cuddle with him ...
      But I can't ... Knowing him if I tell him he will give up on his study and return immediately ..He  says he misses me whenever he calls and he will return whenever I say ...I just try to change the topic because ..I really can't do that .
            
        Sometimes I sit on the balcony and cry...at times when I can't bear missing him ..I look at our photos and smile through tears ..But I never tell him that.

       He is missing me too ...I know that .But he is in a new place...not in a place full of our memories ..full of his scents like me ... nowadays I always sleep hugging his clothes ,it helps me to sleep peacefully .
               
These days are passing pathetically slow ..wish I could make these days go faster .At the rate I am working now ..I am gonna get promoted aga..i.. n ...
 
            "Do you miss the road.. that you grew up on 🎼🎼🎼"
               Arthit's phone rings .He  caps the pan, closes the diary and blinks away the tears .He takes deep breath and receives the phone .

      " Hello .. Mr.Suthiluck .."he says

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Note : I was  exhausted . Everything is ruining my mood and I was getting a headache. So I decided to write this . Point out my mistakes and do comments .Borahe 💜