marry me? // a very short josh kiszka story :)

really?

on tour, september 29th, 2019, 2:12 a.m

everyone on the bus was sleeping, including me. josh had asked me to marry him 37 times in the past 6 months. i was getting tired of him, he was reckless, he drank and threw bottles during rehearsals, popping pills. i helped him get over that, but he was still reckless. but tonight, tonight he really set me off.

'tessa, tessa!' josh whispered, shaking my arm in an attempt to wake me.
'what the hell do you want?' i answered, awoken from my sleep.
'i had a bad dream.' he said.
'you what?' i was furious, waking me up because of a nightmare? bullshit.
'marry me.' he sputtered out.
'let me get you set straight.' i said, sitting up. 'number one, you don't propose to a girl on a bus, number two, im on a bus with four stinky men, i would like to get some sleep.'
'but tessa-'
'there IS no 'but' joshua! im not going to tend to you because of a bad dream! go to bed.' i said. quickly dozing off on the couch.

when i woke up 3 hours later, i grabbed everything i needed and headed off the bus, i was refusing to talk to josh.

'tessa.' he said, and i ignored. 'tessa.' he said again. i walked off the bus and into the dressing room without saying a word. then, he came into my dressing room 10 minutes before the show.

'tessa' he said 'im sorry'
i ignored.
'say something!' he yelled.
'im refusing to talk to you after the stunt you pulled on the bus.' i stated, while putting on makeup. 'the only way you're allowed to talk to me is onstage.'
'baby-'
'baby, baby, BABY!' i mocked, slamming my door shut.

it was now time to do the final song of the evening, me and josh made it okay, no proposals...yet.

'alright folks' he said into the mic 'let's finish with a classic cover of jackson by the great johnny cash.'
the crowd cheered.
'we got married in a fever,
hotter than a pepper sprout,
we been talkin' bout jackson, ever since the fire went out,
im goin to jackson, look out jackson town'

josh cut into the singing, causing the rest of the band to stop, only keeping the beat going.

'sorry for the interruption folks' he said 'but uh, i gotta ask tessa a question here.'
i knew where this was about to go.
'what's that, josh?' i replied, i smiled, pretending to act like everything was fine.
'will you marry me?' he asked.
some of the crowd laughed. i was furious inside, i shot him a dirty look quickly, then smiled, talking into the mic.
'why don't we just sing the song, josh.' i said, trying my best to brush it off.
'no darlin' he said, i turned to look at him.
'c'mon.' i said, still faking a smile. 'finish the song, people wanna hear us sing.' rage was filling within me.
'sorry folks' he said, turning to the crowd, 'but i just can't do the sing anymore unless she gonna marry me. it'd just be like we're lyin.'
'josh, you've got these people all revved up now-'
'you've got me all revved up.' he said, cutting me off. 'i've asked you forty different ways now it's time you come up with the first answer.'
'please sing' i said, desperately, away from the mic.
'i'm askin you.' he whispered. 'to marry me. i love you, tessa.' i looked over at the bass player, wandering if he knew what was going on. 'now i know i've said and done a lot of things, that i've hurt you.' he spoke into the mic a little more. i started tearing up. 'but i won't do that again. i only wanna take care of you.' he placed his hand on my shoulder and my tears started to flow. 'i will not leave you like the little dutch boy with his finger in the damn.' my mascara was fading and my head was shaking no. 'you're my best friend. marry me.' he asked that question so desperately, with hope in his brown, lovable eyes. i looked right into them, tracking them everywhere they looked at me.

'okay' i said, quietly.
'yeah?' he said in disbelief, but excited. i nodded my head again.

we leaned in for the best, and most deserving kiss i've ever had. the crowd started cheering like crazy, going nuts. he pulled away from the kiss and leaned into the mic.

'incase non of y'all heard, she said yes.' he said that with the biggest smile on his face, my arms were wrapped around him. he turned back to me, picked me up and kissed me.

why didn't i say yes the first time?