I was somewhere in wonderland finally getting through when I felt a touch on my shoulder. One very light touch!
I sat up real scared and when the bed cover went down my face my eyes met two beautiful ones of Damon's.
"Damon! You startled me!!!!"
"Sorry sweetie, was that a nightmare?"
"No! Not but... Fuck for?"
"Blake's down the stairs!"
"Blake?!"
"Don't tell me the whole conversation this afternoon went down the drain?"
I sighed and tugged on the spread.
"Can I not see him?"
"No! Not! Now up!"
"After you, bully!"
He shrugged and shut the door real loud.
My heart beat kinda took a race and wouldn't stop the way too loud pounding! This is kinda it, a kinda god forsaken life changing moment although I can't actually figure out fuck I care!!!
I stood off the bed and stared at myself in the mirror in my leather black skirt and lemon shirt what I wore earlier.
Fuck! Its the first time I ever slept without changing my outfit into a really comfy pajamas even though it's middle of the day.
I felt my boot on my feet and cursed under my breath. Is this Blake stuff getting this far?
I headed the door once the knob got turned and the laughter bounced on my walls from the real pretty looking guys having so much fun down stairs. I could guess what they were talking about, Ladies!
Probably some kinda thick ass, boobs and stuffs. I wonder if I was ever a guy those topics would be any interesting to me.
My eyes dragged on everyone and paused on a real cute brunette with two cheeked dimples that at times I end up calling him my twinnie cause of the real nice size of dimples we shared.
My stubborn feet didn't want to get off the carpet of my room when my eyes brushed through a figure laughing real hard in the kitchen. I could tell what his face was like when he was doing that stuff although I'd never seen him actually laugh.
Gosh! Like... I'm really doing this!
But wait a minute.. It was quite easy for Damon to recognise what my whole new annoying feeling was like and label it, is that how transparent it is to him too? Could he possibly tell?
I finally could do it and my boot melted into the thick wine material lined on the staircase and before I could know all eyes were on me and the living room was fucking silent.
"Hi Lucifer, you quite pretty tonight... Going on a date?" Someone called and I couldn't exactly tell who it actually was between the Dolan twins.
"Shut the fuck up!" I heard Damon say and I was pretty relieved when I figured out I was in the kitchen but then the atmosphere became quite hot when his eyes fell on me.
Silence lingered all around the house for long and when it finally broke one of the Dolan twins turned on the music real loud.
"Hey!" He waved his hand and I almost started laughing. Really? That was the next thing to do?
"Let's get to the point!" I snapped and he smiled.
"You were mad at me, I don't get why?"
"How the fuck did you know that cause last I checked you were way too busy to notice!" I said.
"Too busy?" He played dumb and earned rolled eyes.
"Don't tell me you were mad cause I was going out with Sophie."
"Why on earth would I be mad about that, who cares?"
Silence came on!
"Really?" He spoke.
Silence came on!
"Speak to me!"
I was gon' start speaking up but I could feel myself ending up in tears if I uttered anything.
I bit on my lower lips so I don't explode!
I lowered my head in case the tears were gonna betray and he doesn't get to see it.
My tummy ached when I felt a light touch on my cheeks and when I raised my head I don't know the fuck when and how but Blake was standing right in front of me holding up my face in his palms and fuck when and how I could feel my face wet with tears.
It finally did betray!
The tears wouldn't stop at all. They kept on escaping and I bit my lower lip when his thumb brushed through my cheeks.
"I never knew, I'm fucking sorry."
I pulled away and took few steps away, further into the kitchen.
"I thought you liked me," I said battling with my tears. "But you were apparently just getting close to me to get to Sophie!"
It felt like I heard him gasp but I didn't bother turn around.
"What the fuck!" He exclaimed. "What do you mean? I like you not Sophie so fuck for?"
"What did you mean when you said I don't know how crazy feelings could be?" I turned around finally in control of my tears.
"That didn't refer to me... I was talking about any feelings-"
"Why are you lying?" I blurted and he rolled his eyes.
"Would you listen to me please."
I crossed my arms over my chest awaiting his explanation.
"I have a brother who was right there the first day you took our order at the restaurant. He's kinda crazy about Sophie and wouldn't stop frustrating me to get her number. And if about me and her going out at all times I was fucking a third wheel all the while I swear! And fuck! The day you got her to give me her number that I offered you a ride home I was gon' ask you to tag along with me.. Something like a double date or something but you didn't give me an audience."
The kitchen grew real silent although the house was fucking loud thanks to the music.
"If one is fucking meant to be hurt I'm the one meant to cause you've been fucking ignoring me and going all around with that guy. I was at your school ones but he's always wherever you at."
Silence!
"I'm really sorry!"
"Maybe I'm the one who's meant to be. I'm sorry." I finally spoke up.
Silence!
"I gave the impression so I'm sorry." He replied.
That leaves me with nothing to say.
The kitchen grew real hot in silence.
"Could we..." His words faded off and I'm confused if its cause I turned to look at him or the request was not a nice one.
"Make up?" I blurted. Where the fuck are all the words coming from?
"Probably.. Yes!"
I turned away sought of words.
"I should get to bed!" I said walking outta the kitchen. Saving him from trying to start up a conversation that wouldn't end up well.
