It had been a week since the incident where I had to help with the body. At first, I felt bad but the more I thought about it, the more I wanted to do it again. I know I sound crazy, but it helped feed into a certain part of me.
I wasn't always the quiet girl who let everybody mess with her. I used to be so confident and wouldn't let anybody do anything to hurt me or my friends, until some traumatic stuff happened to me. That's how I became friends with Raeleigh, My best friend. We always used to fight for each other ever since we were little. But, this feeling I couldn't even tell her about. She'd think I'm crazy.
It just felt good to have authority for once. But I don't think I could just go around killing people. Maybe this feeling is coming from my fucked up childhood, with a crackhead momma and an abusive daddy. I stopped talking about my childhood since people always told me at least my dad was still in my life, but I'd rather not know him at all.
I'm currently in my bed, thinking about those events. I haven't spoken to any of my friends, or even my brother since that night.
"Bitch why haven't you talked to me in a whole ass week!" Raeleigh interrupted my thoughts, bursting into my room. I quickly gathered myself together inside and pretended to act normal.
"Oh I'm sorry, I've been working so much," I said, smiling and extending my arms out, indicating for her to hug me. "I'm thinking about quitting and just doing hair full time," I mumbled against her shoulder.
"Well I think you're good at hair, so I think it'll be good. Plus, it's only until you graduate college." She said, pulling away. "But, get ready cuz we're going to Chapo's."
Chapo was like our big brother, we all grew up on the same block, including Duece, Zee, Rondo and Daesean. They were all our best friends, and we'd always hang out.
"Okay," I said, getting up and walking over to my closet. It was hot and humid, so I picked out jean shorts and a blue tank top. I took my sweats off, about to put on my shorts when I felt fire on my ass. I snapped my neck at Rae, seeing her giggling with a blunt in her hand.
"You're so gay." I laughed along with her. I put the rest of my clothes on and brushed my hair quickly since I just did it myself the other day.
"Let me hit it please." She passed the blunt to me, and I inhaled multiple times. After a few minutes, I felt high.
"So what's up with you and Vaun?" I asked, giggling. Her and my brother, Vaun had been feeling each other ever since we were little.
"Not shit. I fuck with Chapo and you know this bruh."She laughed, passing me the blunt. "No, cuz I know you were in his room 3 days ago," I smirked.
