Breakdown

I collapse on the floor

          Crying

I shut and lock the door

          Inside i am dying

My head in my hands i crumble

                    Tears slide down my face

I take the blade and my hands start to tremble

                    My old scars have been replaced

With fresh
                   Perfect
                                Scarlet
Cuts.

Replaced with new sorrows
                                                Anger
                                                            Dark
Thoughts.

Tears fall onto the floor, sinking deeper in the ground

     Watering the roots

Of children never found
    
     Watering the roots

Of the souls who are bound.

                    Bound to the ground of sorrows

Of the souls who are bound

                    Who will never see tomorrow.

Looking at the blank walls,

     I cry

Looking at all the times ive fallen,

     I want to die

The pictures on the wall mock me

     With their fake happiness and fun

Reminding me that i will never be free

     Because in this body i am trapped, we are one.

They all say its within yourself to seek

     To seek happiness

     To seek goodness
    
     To seek hope

They all say you will find inner peace

     If only you try
    
     If only you give it your all

     Only if you dont die.