the day will come when you won't be

what comes after

I enter in Angel's house and everyone was already here. Angel's house is not a house at all, he lives in a flat under an art gallery. Xander is upset, I guess he is still mourning, he can't relate that he left Anya dying in Sunnydale. I am gonna talk with Willow about a secret project.

     Giles: So if I didn't warn you about what we are going to talk it was because I knew that Buffy would not have come! We are gonna talk about how it happens... I mean uhh... How Spike did it...

He looks at me without any mercy, He perfectly knows that I won't talk about it.

     Kennedy:  It's clear! The amulet was magical and It saved the world even if Spike died. I mean that the amulet killed Spike and saved the world at the same time. So... 

Suddenly, taken by the wrath, I stand up and I say:

     Buffy (me): How rude! Why the hell are you talking of him like that! He saved your life dumbass !

     Angel: I think that...

     Buffy(me): Shut up!

     Kennedy: He rapes you and then...

     Willow: Kennedy, please, don't make it harder for Buff!

     Xander: Yeah I agree with Kennedy, he was a monster.

     Buffy(me): please... stop!

The silence became icy

     Buffy(me): It's too hard for me. I lost somebody... Someone I loved more than anything and...

The tears begin to roll on my skin and I do not want my friends to see me crying so I insulate in the kitchen. I sit on a chair and all I want is him. I hear Angel coming. 

     Angel: Buffy, are you alright? Well, I know you don't. I just wanted to know what can I do for you. 

     Buffy(me): Angel, tell me that when we were far away from each other you suffered.

     Angel: What a question? You know it hurts.

     Buffy(me):  So, please, understand me... I feel lost in this world without him, help me to find him, please...

     Angel: but I love you...

     Buffy(me): Angel, you are my soulmate and my first love but it doesn't mean that we have to spend all of our life together. I love you too much but... If you love me as I do and you want my happiness, please, help me to find Spike.

     Angel: stand by me!

He stares at me and I see in his eyes his devotion. Willow enters the kitchen.

     Willow: Ow Buffy, please forgive me for what Kennedy said, She doesn't know of what is she talking about.

     Buffy(me): Angel could you let me alone with Willow?

     Angel: Ok I wait for you in the Saloon.

I close the door and make sure that no one can hear our conversation.

     Willow: I know what you are going to ask and yes, I found a spell to bring Spike back to life.

TO BE CONTINUED...