I feel like I'm losing myself
If people heard the thoughts in my head, they'd think I'm crazy
Life wants to get better, but I'm stuck in the past
I feel betrayed by my own self
Most nights, I cry because it hurts to feel alone
I need and want people that will never come back to me
I miss them so much
And then I think again
What would be like if they were here
Would they be proud, or would they be angry with me for all I have done
Would they call me weak, or would they call me strong
Would they smile when they'd see me, or would they cry
Would they walk right past me or stop and say hi
Father, grandmother, grandfather, ex-friends
I think about them every day
I'm not the same girl I was yesterday or the day before that
But the emotions always stay the same
