When tears fall

○chapter 1○

“ It's me, dad...I feel really sick right now could you call the school? I don't feel like going there today"
Yes that's me. Alissa or better Ali. My school is just existing because of dad. He is donating to my school and I guess his money, his school...well thats what everybody is thinking but trust me life as a “rich kid” sucks.

Do I have friends? No
Maybe you thought that but in my experiences I can say all my friends are fake. They only want to be with me because they get what they want (no matter how much it costs) and they're automatically popular.

As much as I love having all these new and trendy stuff and many “friends”, I feel alone all the time and that's just horrible...
My mom started to drink alcohol when I was ten. She cheated on my dad multiple times. They divorced.

My mom wanted to take my brother and me to her house with her new boyfriend but as long as she was still drinking my dad didn't allow to let her take us with her. She said she would never forget us and write post cards and visit us and yes she did but after a few months we haven't heard anything from her again. The last time I have seen her is 5 years ago…I guess it's better like this.
Anyway school started again but as you could already hear I won't go because i'm “sick”.
The only thing, which is keeping me up is my big brother. He finished school a few years ago so I'm not seeing him often but the time when he's here at home is the best time ever! He is the brother every kid wishes for.

The doorbell rang. That was unusual. My Dad comes always somewhere between evening and night. I went downstairs but before I could open the door I heard a voice shouting.
“YOUR PIZZA IS HERE!”
I didn't order anything but the voice sounded familiar. I opened the door and in front of me was my brother!
“JACKSON! I've missed you so fucking much!!! You can't believe”, I said while embracing him.

“What are you doing here? Are you going to stay long? How are your new friends? Have you found a girl? Oh my gosh I have so many questions.”
“What if I come in first?”, Jackson laughed.
“Oh yes of course”, I said embarrassed.
He went in and told me everything! I hope once I'll have a life just like him. He's travelling around the world. There is nobody forcing him to do anything, and he's far away from all that money and drama.
“Jackson? Can I ask you something”, I began.
“Yes of course sis, talk”
“You know how much I hate it living here?”
“Yes Ali I know just as me before”
“Yeah... I wanted to ask if I could come with you... can you please take me with you? I want to be near you. I want to talk to you everyday just like we did seconds before. I'm lonely…I have nobody here with me. You are the only one, who can help me...please Jackson I'm begging you…”, tears filled my eyes.

“Ali, listen...", before he could talk, I cut his words off.
“NO, I have enough from listening... I don't want my life like this anymore and you know that feeling better than anyone else”
“Alissa you know that's not possible.you have school here and all your friends… also, dad wouldn't allow it”
“Please Jackson... why do I need school? I'm smart… I'm the class best. I don't have real friends and you know that... I can talk to dad.”

“No Ali… I'm sorry”

My body started tingling. Just as always, when I'm furious…or I'm really sad. I started crying as hard as I haven't cried in ages. I stood up and quickly put on my jacket and shoes. I opened the door just to step out. “ Ali wait…haven't you missed me? I'm really sorry bu-”, the door shutting cut of his words again.

It was rainy and cold but nothing could hold me from running away.
20 minutes after, I was already there...in the woods. When my brother and me where younger we found a little house there. Nobody was living there and it was really damaged, so we made it to our mission to clean it and make it to a cool place to hang out. I wasn't there since 2 years and you can really see that.

I didn't care. I just laid down on a little old couch which was standing there and cried.
I never cried that much and that hard. You probably think that I'm overacting and that so many people have to deal with so much worse but right now I just don't want to exist anymore...you can't believe how hard my life is without anyone caring for me.

Nobody loves me and the brother I always thought was there for me, doesn't want me to go with him.
I know Jackson would find me but I didn't care about that.

My mind was full of questions and thoughts…
“Am I really that stupid and dumb everyone thinks I am?”, I asked myself.
My head already hurt from all the tears. But before I could stand up again I fell asleep…