hans

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I met a guy named Hans.

We became friends because of a rhythm game.

He approached me first by stealing my ice cream.

Then, we started contacting each other.

We got closer everytime we talk to each other.

He's the best friend you could ask for.

He started to caress my hair, pinch my cheeks, and hold my hands.

Because of his gestures, I started to have feelings for him.

This feeling isn't like those feelings I have for others.

This, is different.

I admit, I am too young for this.

I'm 13, he's 17.

But age doesn't matter right?

We talk as if we're the same age.

We caress each other's hair because we're comfortable with each other.

We hold hands because, why not?

We tease each other because it's fun.

Though I may get annoyed easily, he's always there for me.

We sleep on each other's laps because we're both fine with it.

We talk about hentai as if we're 18 and above.

I'm a teenager like him too, and I have trouble confessing my feelings.

There are lots of times I would hesitate to confess.

I started to think, what if we would get awkward with each other if i confess, what if he would stay away from me? etc.

These thoughts crossed my mind a lot of times because i tend to overthink A LOT.

I'm really confused. REALLY CONFUSED.

I never thought I will have feelings for him.

Because at first, my only intention was to be friends with him.

I never thought that this will happen.

Because of my feelings, I would imagine my life with him.

Him as my boyfriend, husband, and the person that would stay with me forever.

I imagine too much.

I know that he will never be mine.

It's up to my fate if I will be his and if he will be mine.

I'm just 13 and I am too malandi.

I just wanted to release my inner thoughts and shit through this.

To anyone who will read this, thank you for reading about my ass going through puberty lol.

Thanks for bearing with me.