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Chapter twenty six: Shock

Mirae POV.

Today is our trip to Japan. We're staying there for a week.

All kinds of thoughts keep rushing into my brain when I peeked inside Jimin's room and I saw that he was listening to music and tears are falling from his eyes as he was hugging his legs to his chest. 

Why would he cry inside his room if there is no one around him? No one to act around. He seems hurt and my heart is begging me to go and check on him, to hug him tighter than even and kiss him like there's no tomorrow. But, stubborn me just couldn't do it and I ended up going to wherever the hell I was going.

~Time skip, in Japan~ 

I took a deep breath as I step outside our private plane, after about half an hour we arrived at the hotel, after freshening up I called my brother to check on him, he answered the phone but all I got was a conversation between my brother and Jimin. 

Jimin POV.

Taehyung's phone rang but he just slipped his phone over then turned to face me " you need to tell her your side of the story before things turn worse than before " He spoke in a calm voice.

" I know Taehyung, but every time she sees me all I can see is the pain in her eyes, even if I dare to tell her everything I end up backing off because I can't handle how hurt she looks " 

"No Jimin, leaving her without knowing is what's hurting her but when you tell her she will no longer be hurt, " He said " She has to understand that just because she's right, doesn't mean that you are wrong she hasn't seen life from your side so buckle up and tell her, force her to listen " 

" I know but what if she didn't believe and said that it was all an act? " I asked with frustration.

Mirae POV.

My eyes were tearing when I heard this conversation between Jimin and my brother, my mind automatically started to re-think everything. 

~Was I the one who ended up hurting both of us not him?~

This was the question that kept playing in my head like a melody, I am scared to face Jimin. I'm afraid to look him in the eyes and see all the pain I've put him through but this misery I caused has to end and I have to listen to him. 

I remember the little conversation I had with Nunbyul eonnie earlier today.

- flashback-

I was on the plane and I was looking at me and Jimin's pictures together a year ago, Nunbyul eonnie suddenly snatched the phone from my hand. 

" You're looking at your pictures together but somehow you don't let him explain himself," She said with a sympathetic look. 

" Well, after that day he spoke to me, he never spoke to me again and was avoiding me, he never returned eonnie. Maybe if he had returned I would have listened to him " I said with a shrug trying to hide my pain. 

" I think people fail to return not because they don't care but because they don't want the reminder and aren't proud of the way they feel about themselves as a result of their actions. Some people allow guilt to lead to silence. You don't understand, on one end there is a shame and the other is misunderstanding and self-blame. Both are such displaced emotions belonging to neither. Because if only you spoke, what you would find is resolution, forgiveness, and love buried beneath silence neither of you wanted to begin with "