The frosty oulook on the world is fogged up. The window feels as cold as my heart somedays. The freezing sensation of a solid hits my hand. Winter is coming and snow is hitting. The one I love does not know. For I am not brave enough to spill the secret. Days pass and the secret remains. I feel that it's obvious enough. Do I have to say it- because it seems you aren't noticing. The words do not want to slip from my mouth. I am just wanting to be wanted. Does he even like me? I hate the confusion. The secrets. And most of all the wanting. Every time I see you you make me laugh so hard. My smile is brighter than the sun when I am around you... I miss you already. I don't want to hold on any longer. But how do I tell you? Most likely you don't even feel the same for me. I've been heartbroken so many times this will just be another one. "It will be okay", I tell myself ... But will it? I've been waiting for you so long. I get the butterflies still. I feel that God has put you in my life for a reason. Now I have to test the one reason ... loving you. Should I hold on? I'm not sure anymore. The questions I am frequently getting are from one person only ... the one I see in the mirror. SO many love stories these days, I am starting to doubt they are real. I just want to be wanted, and frankly, that's by YOU and YOU ONLY. We both know that this has a chance. Please just give it a chance. My brain, my heart, is going crazy for you. I want to wait, then again I don't. You bring me up ... when I am in the dark. You understand more of me than you think ... I wish you understood so more though. We have so much more in common than you think but it feels a bit uncomfortable telling you. The story of my life feels so different to many ... but not yours. I have been waiting forever. It makes me feel horrible when you keep dating my friends ... but there's nothing I can do about it. Take all the time you need, but know that the warmth of your heart can be shared with me. Looks don't matter people. I love you, but I can't spell it out for you ... it's not that simple. "If you would realize what I just realized, that we would be perfect for eachother and we'd never find another... we'd never have to wonder if we'd missed out on eachother"cobie calliat
I wish it were more simple than this. I want to know you even more and that's why people date. I feel that I do find myself wanting to be closer to God first though. I date people only if I am looking for marriage though. Howver, there are always highschool sweethearts. We could be those people. I want you to love me. I feel that you don't see it. I wouldn't be writing this if you did. Please at least stop finding my friends and not me. I wnat to get your attention before it's too late ... again. I keep putting it off because I'm scared. I want to take a chance and wake up and give it a shot. Who knows there are different possibilites if you end up wanting me ... you may want me... not want me ... or try and stay friends. I am finding myself being too shy to tell you the secret. Are you coming over soon? You already know where I live for if we date <3 I listen to this and sound so crazy. I recentley have had you share some good to know information with me. If you trust me then that is one thing I do not have to worry about. I honestly feel the feeling of love. Some may say I do not know what love is. But you know love when you feel it... and love is patient, love is kind, love does not envy, etc. If that's related to the bible then it must be true. <3 <3 <3 :) I just want to be wanted.... by you....
