Girls just wanna have fun

First boyfriend

It all started in the fifth grade. My name is Avery, I was about eleven years old when I was just figuring out my sexuality. I knew I liked boys because I had the biggest crush on the tallest boy in my class. He would always talk to me and want me to play with him on the playground after lunch.
My school wasn't like other schools though, we all wanted to grow up fast and do teenager things. So by that I mean get in relationships and smoke, either it was cigarettes or weed.
Yes I know I was only eleven and that' sounds crazy dumb but that's just how we were. I grew up in a "ghetto" as most people would say. I wasn't ghetto but going to school and growing with people who actually lived in the 'ghetto' only made elementary more fun.
Now that we got that out of the way back to my point. I was only eleven years old with the biggest crush on the tallest boy in my grade, who seemed to like me back.
A week before Halloween, Monday. I told my friends I liked him and they all freaked out and told me I should date him. So I said what any other eleven year old in my grade would
"you should go ask him for me"
After my friends all rushed to the group of boys while I hid in the bathroom trying not to cry, afraid of rejection. They all rushed in with so much excitement and started telling me about the conversation they had with the taller boy. This is how it went
Friend 1-"Avery! we told wacey that you liked him and he got really shy around his bro's"
Friend 2- "Yeah! And they all started teasing him and laughing with him but he just stood there blushing!"
Friend 1- "We didn't ask him out for you but we know he likes you! And he told us to tell you he wants to hang out after lunch! During recess"
Me- "Oh my god guys I'm so scared! this is gonna be my first boyfriend"
The conversation continued after that and we just came up with a plan for lunch time, during silent reading. We all went to the corner beside the bookshelf to discuss how it would go. They all wanted me to wait by the slide, but I personally thought I should just wait for him in the shoe room how I always did. They didn't agree with me but I told them I was gonna do whatever i felt more comfortable with. My friends all agreed that when they see me with him they wouldn't be too far away so they could see what was happening. So by that they mean their gonna wait on top of the park while I try make him take me under the park to talk.

None of that happened how we planned it out. During recess I waited for him in the shoe him while he put on his shoes. He seemed just as nervous as I was but after I gave him a smile before leaving I knew that he wasn't so nervous anymore. We walked out and I seen my friends at the top of the park, waiting, just as planned. I suggested to him that we should go that way but he said he wanted to be with me alone. Alone, where nobody could hear what was going on. I know I couldn't force him to the park because then he would know so I just followed him to where ever he walked. He made small conversations but made sure to walk extra close to me and I liked that. I wasn't uncomfortable but I was getting nervous of the tension that was starting build up as we walked towards the smaller park.

There really was nothing to be nervous about though because I knew that he liked me back after my conversation with my friends in the bathroom.

"Avery.. your friends told me you liked me.. is it true?" He asked once we stopped at the smaller park.

I felt my heart start racing after I heard that "yes it is true.."

"oh.. I like you too" he smiled at me "I wanted to know if you wanted to be my girlfriend now?"

I felt pure joy in that moment. I finally got the boy I wanted. I didn't know how to be someone's girlfriend but I knew kissing and hugs were involved. That had me excited because my friends always talked about their first kisses and hugs. I thought I would never get a boyfriend because of how tall I was and how ugly the popular girls made me feel. In that moment when he asked me to his girlfriend I felt the prettiest I have ever felt because of how big his smile was when I said yes to him. We didn't know what to do after that so we stood in silence for awhile, then the bell rang. Before heading to door he gave me quick hug and ran off to see his fiends who were already watching us as they made their way back in the school.

I thought that this was the best day in my life but boy was I wrong