Him...

~Signed~

"Which restaurant should we go to?" "How about Ginellis?" "Sure, but you're paying then..." "Of course I have to pay, stingy as always love." I trail behind my parents as they bicker over who is stingier between them. I feel like my life has been shattered into a million pieces that cannot be glued back together. I can still see the image in my head...the two of them walking to the car together. Their hands laces together, laughing at Heralds jokes. I really wish I could have that in my life right now. The way he looked at her with adoration in his eyes...the way she gave him her biggest smile...

I took my seat at the table and ordered what I always order with Herald here at Ginellis: Three Ways Lasagne. I hate how this reminds me of Herald. My mom says I could always change foods for once but I'm really not in the mood. As I wait for my food, my parents and I make small talk until the food arrives. Everything was going just fine until..."Emery honey, are you feeling OK after what happened? You sure you don't want to move back to Attaway yet? Maybe you could get a fresh start there again," my said softly. "I don't know mom, I think I am going to stay here for a while longer before I go back. I just need a little more time for everything," I say. But what I actually meant to say was:"No hay mom, ...I mean like, I just got divorced by the love of my life an hour ago and found out that he has a girlfriend, oh and YES, like I'm going to live in Attaway where Herald is...so to add it all up, I am NOT OK."