Day 1
"Baby, how's your day going so far?" I asked you in a sweet tone of voice while I'm cooking dinner for us.
"Just like the usual." You didn't even bother to look at me, you just walked straight to our room.
You're cold, and it hurts.
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Day 2
"Hey, baby." I looked at you seductively.
"Hey." You didn't look at me, you stood up and get out of our room.
What's wrong?
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Day 6
I miss you so much, but it's look like you don't care at all.
I'm cooking breakfast for us. I'm cooking chicken curry, your favorite. You came out of our room, holding a phone in your ear. You're smiling, hmm I missed that smile. I'm wondering who's your talking with.
"Hey, baby! Let's eat! I cooked your favorite!" I gave you a smile. You looked at me with no any emotions.
"I need to go, I'll eat in the office." You said in a cold tone of voice.
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Day 27
It's our 3rd wedding anniversary and I wanted to surprise you. You've been very busy these past few weeks, so I wanted to make you happy. I cooked your favorite food and I prepared wine and etc. in the dining table. I putted some rose petals in our bed hoping that you'll have time for me.
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It's already 11:00 in the evening and you're not home yet. Maybe, you forgot that it's our anniversary. I understand, you're so busy these past few weeks.
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1:00 am and I'm worried, where the hell are you?
I grabbed my phone and dialed your number. I called you so many times but you didn't answer.
Where the hell are you?! Why you're not answering your phone? I'm really worried.
I dialed your number again and I'm so happy coz this time you answered.
"Hey, baby?" I said.
"Hmmm, oh" but instead of your voice I heard a woman's voice. I checked my phone if I dialed the wrong number, but I didn't.
"Oh! So tight! Fuck!" I stilled when I heard you moan.
I heard different kinds of moan, yours and a woman's moan. I felt something hot and wet in my cheeks.
Memories flashes back to my mind. The way you look at me this past few weeks, the way you ignore me, your smile when you're talking someone on the phone. Then I remembered our wedding day. Me, walking down the aisle. And you, waiting for me.
Our promises, our plans, our dreams.
Damn! Why? Am I not enough? Why are you doing this to me? What the hell?
Even if it hurts, I listened. I listened to your moans.
Is that it? This is the reason why you're so busy? You're busy with other woman? You forgot that it's our anniversary coz you're busy? Damn, why does this hurts so much? I wanted to die. I wanted to kill you and your woman. I hate you.
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After few minutes the moans stops as I ended the call. I grabbed a wine and a shot glass. I wanted to drink. I want my heart to be numb.
I hate myself for being not enough.
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After few hours of drinking I heard the door opens.
"Thiara what are you doing?! Why are you drinking?!"
You grabbed the wine that I'm holding unto. I looked at you with no any emotions.
This man in front of me is the one who made me happy for 8 years. But also the man who made me broken and wanted to die forever.
I slapped you, hard.
"What the hell?!" You looked at me with anger in your eyes. How dare you? "What the hell is your fuckin problem Thiara?!"
"My problem is you! I hate you! I hate you for giving me this kind of pain! I hate you for not loving me! I hate you!" I shouted at you. The emotions in your eyes didn't change.
"You hate me? Then I hate you too! I'm tired of this fuckin relationship! I'm tired of you! I'll file an annulment! I'm tired!" You said and turned your back on me. You walks towards our room.
I just wanted to die...
It hurts...
I want to die...
Please help me...
Help me forget this pain.....
