Writing Prompts

Letter To Your Future Self

Dear future Escely,

I hope you are doing well. I really hope that you have succeeded or are trying to succeed. Hopefully you can look back on present me and laugh at my problems. I know that sometimes I am sad and I make mistakes but I sincerely hope I didn't mess up anything you are doing now.

I hope that when you wake up every morning and look in the mirror that you are happy with the reflection staring back at you. I don't know why but when I wrote that I thought of the line in the Titanic when Rose picks up the old mirror and says, "Hmm, reflection's changed a bit." It's currently 6:20AM on November 15, 2014. You may be wondering why I am awake right now and maybe my sleeping patterns have changed by then but if you remember, I have the worst sleeping schedule. 

When you read this, if you ever remember this, I don't want you to look back at me as a sad story. I don't want you to remember these times as sad times. I am happy. I am not depressed. I may get sad at night and not be happy with the reflection looking back at me and I may worry that I'll never make it, but I'm okay. I'm not just the sad girl with a scar down her chest that you should pity. Many things have happened to me but I am strong, I am not broken.

Who knows? By now, you may be so much happier than I am. Or you may be at your lowest point. But I really want you to know that I look forward to meeting you. I hope that I can do you proud and to live my life to the fullest. And do not worry about that boy or money because you'll be okay. I am so happy to be you. This sounds really weird writing now but hopefully in the future it'll somehow make more sense. 

If you don't remember what's going on right now in my life, I'll catch you up. August of this year you went to meet that boy from that state and he kissed you. And he broke your heart. And you weren't okay. And you're still struggling. And for awhile you cried every night. Maybe he's still apart of your life now. That would be nice, he's still a good guy.

I hope that by now you've gained some confidence in your work because even though I'm from the past, you should know that I think it's great. I won't ever admit to that because I am very self-conscious. But I suppose that's what I am doing right now. Sometimes, I look back on my past work. It's crazy when I look at it because I see a whole different me. They often say your writing and characters reflect yourself and I can definitely see that. I'll read stuff I've written in seventh or eighth grade and be amazed by the vernacular I've used. Maybe by now you'll understand that you do have some sort of talent.

I really hope you're happy future self. I don't like being sad. You should know that, of course. How are you? Maybe when you find this in the future, whether its months, years, or decades away, you write again to your future self. Because I can't wait for myself to stumble upon this. Reminisce. I wonder if that word still makes you think of  Never Shout Never's "Happy".

Do you still tell puns? I know that I do. I laugh at them because laughter is healthy. This prompt I am doing was only supposed to say "Write a letter to your future self in 10 minutes." But according to my timer it's been longer than 10 minutes. Do you still listen to Elliott Smith's "Between the Bars". I don't know if you remember but that was your favorite song. You even had a first kiss to that and "No Rain" by Blind Melon.  Ah, nintie's music. My favorite.

I really want to make this a longer letter but I don't know what to say to you. I want to say more but I'm running on like four hours of sleep (as per usual) and my brain can't seem to function. What kind of music do you listen to now? Do you still like the Weepies? What about Les Miserables? I know that's something that you are often embarrassed to admit you listen to. I hope you find someone who doesn't make you feel that way.

I wonder how old I'll be when I find this. Have you graduated college? Did I make the right decision? Do you have anything published? Are you proud of yourself? I know I am proud of you. At least I want to be. That sounds crazy because the future is unknown but I know you can do it. Life is a crazy journey, and I promise you, you're gonna make it. Do I have any kids yet? Am I married? Is he attractive? I hope so, for yours and my sake. I hope everything works out for you. 

This letter is going on 30 minutes around now and frankly, I am okay with that. What's your favorite movie? Did you ever complete his list? My favorite movie is Stuck in Love. I wonder if that'll change. I hope you still read a lot, more than I do now. I've really fallen out of that habit and I don't like it. Was the Fifty Shades movie good? Current you loved the books! 

A famous writer once said, "Nothing needs to happen in a writer's life after they are twenty. By then they've experienced more than enough to last their creative life." Have you experienced enough? I hope so. 

Enjoy your life now, because yesterday has gone and tomorrow may never come.

Love always, 

Future Escely