im a good person

I may do bad things but it does not mean im a bad person.
I was born into a rich family my father was never around and my mother had countless affairs with many butlers and "friends of hers "
My child hood was different from many other kids
I grew up to resent my parents from years of emotional neglect and distance towards me .
I spent alot of time by my self and that ment alot of time thinking about alot of things . Thinking leads to you becoming obsessed with things .A person ,an animal ,running away ,pain ,murder . But there only thoughts and they dont mean anything just thoughts
Im rambling although my child hood was bad im great at many things ,im a laywer now in greatly intelligent above avarage IQ im sure .
I have many friends but i dont think they understand me they didnt have the same childhood i had . Nobody had it as bad as me as a child so nobody is ever going to understand me so i feel quite loney alot of the time i dont feel as if people with better lives then me deserve it
It angers me to think that others had a better childhood then me its not fair at all
This is something i think about alot the anger always builds up inside me but im a good person so i ignor it ......