I Really Think You Should Be Thanking Me

"Hell Hath No Fury Like a Woman Scorned"

© 2014 Nanshanapa Shequinah. All rights reserved

                                         Title inspired by ’The Vampire Diaries’ TV series

First, she befriended them all; she helped them deepen their feelings for Arthor, telling them that she knew Arthor “like a brother” so they could trust that she meant well. Then, when all those girls had only love and dreams filling their heart, she crushed those feelings by showing them how unfaithful he was, feeding her own hatred into them. Pushing them to the very edge, crushing all idea of dignity any human being could possess, the type of dignity or rather lack of it that pushes one to want to kill themselves, to go insane; to think they were nothing...

Although Arthor repaid her in full, he grew tired of the destruction she left in her wake, so he confronted her, asking her what was so wrong with her...

She snapped:

JENNA

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! Do you really have no appreciation for me? I have given you everything because I wanted the best for you. I even gave myself to you! I gave you a promising relationship where we would’ve been the best of friends in the whole world. WE COULD HAVE RULED THE WHOLE WORLD! You and me! Together! And all those little slutts that you care for so much more than you care for me would have kneeled before us because together, we are incredibly magnificent! They would’ve begged for our mercy, and we would have shared drinks on their weakling. Dead. Bodies! CHAMPAGNE, even!... But noooo!! You decided to turn yourself on me... ON, ME: your everything!...

(Jenna stops her tirade to laugh)

You know, I was the reason why you suddenly became so damn... gorgeous! Because you, were with ME, it made you almost look like a god! A greek god!... Do you comprehend what mess became of you when you tried to look passed me? Do you even realize how pathetic that made you?! How low you became since that very moment?! How you, being separated from me, made you as little as those little sluts you love so much?

(Jenna pauses again, roaming around. She kicks on the first thing at her feet, screaming out of being treated so disrespectfully)

After all your foolish humiliation , it dawned on me that I had the power to ruin you to the bone! To really turn you into the little nothing you decided to become, and I did that just before turning them into ashes! But I loved you so much! What the hell, I STILL DO! My heart can’t do anything but bump harder in your presence because you are my pride! (she whispers the last word vehemently) You are the reason why being the strongest didn’t mean being lonely, and it is right at that moment when I realized that killing you and your pathetic lovers would just hurt me some more that I came up with an amazing idea... (she smiles, as if just now recalling it)  I decided to give you something else to live for, something that only the both of us would share, something that meant that  waking up in the morning with your greed eating you up would be the only thing you lived for because at the end of the day, all you would be caring about was to spend your day focusing on that one thing I was so gentle to offer you. And so, I started by destroying all you cared about.

(Her eyes are gleaming with so much internal laughter that a hint of crazy can be seen in the depth of her eyes)

I Chewed on the pathetic emotions that grew in you towards anyone but me. I killed all those little whores because their stupidity when you were concerned was pitiful. I opened their blinded eyes that didn’t seem to see how one day, you would betray them just as you did me. THEY FINALLY SAW YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE!! And that my love, was me doing you an enormously gigantic and wondrous favor. I gave you something else to live for. Something other than your uncontrollably ridiculous lust that you seemed to have for anyone but me, something other than hating yourself when you came to the realization of how ugly your really are inside.

(Jenna pauses again, trying to find the right words before exploding)

But what the hell, the very moment I tore my heart out of my chest to hand it to you it was like I bounded myself to you forever. So I didn’t have a choice. Again, I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING, someone to HATE, to LOATH, A TARGET for all of your anger so you don’t have to turn it on yourself... I really think you should be thanking me.