*mentions of rape*
"Are you crazy?" i asked Maxi my best friend. She was begging me to go to this concert with her. I would say yes if what happened last time i went to the same band's concert didn't happen. It would just bring back memories I don't want. "Please, Jade I promise nothing will happen i will be there the whole time. The tickets are front row. Brendon Urie will probably be able to look us in the eyes." She begged once more. "Fine" i Said bluntly. "But if you leave me there i will kill you and don't for one second take that as an empty threat" i said in a low voice to get my point across.
*Time skip at the concert*
"3-2-1" The fans screamed as Brendon popped up on stage. As they finished the first song Roaring 20' s the fans cheered. As it got louder it began to become harder for me to breath. Then it hit me i was having an anxiety attack. I began to fall to the ground and cry i tried to get back up but was unable.
"Hey is she okay?" A familiar voice asked " Hey! Zack get her up and out of the crowd! Now!" the voice said again. i felt hands wrap around my waist as i was being lifted. " Hey, you are gonna be fine. I am gonna take you backstage." Said the man. " Who told you to do this please let me go." I cried as i remember what happened last time. "Please don't hurt me." i begged."I won't hurt you. Brendon told me to get you out of there I am just doing my job." He said
I was set down and i finally was able to open my eye because i was no longer afraid. I opened my eyes and there stood Zack. " Thank you so much" i said because i don't know how bad i would have gotten if i was just there. I tried to stand but was unable still so I sat back down. " Brendon told me to let you stay back here." He said. "Okay thank you." I thanked him once more. He nodded and left I opened my phone and just scrolled through Instagram.
After what felt like forever I heard footsteps come up to the door scaring me. i hid behind the chair i was sitting on hoping that it wasn't some stranger then the person spoke. "I cand see your head, it's just me Brendon." He laughed at my stupidity which made me quite uncomfortable.
I stood to my feet and faced a sweaty Brendon. "Hi." I said nervously
"Hey, there is no need to be nervous you gonna be okay. Did you come here with anyone?" he asked sweetly. "Yes" i said less anxious. "I will just call an uber and i will get out of your hair. She probably left already." " Why would you say that?" he asked confused. "Because she doesn't care last time i came to one of your shows i was raped. She never gave a shit she would just act like it never happened." I said sourly. " Oh, I-" he stopped what he said knowing i was not gonna help. " Let me give you a ride im going home after i shower so i will take you home."
"No i am not going home I was gonna go to a hotel or something." i said starting to cry because i didn't know what to do. Brendon eventually calmed me down and took a shower. i got tired of the quiet so started to sing a song that i wrote
You'd say you'd stay but then you'd runGiving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need
I don't want any settled scores
I just want you to set me free
Giving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need, say I needI'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure you're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door and leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
Bored, I'm so bored, I'm so bored, so boredI'm home alone, you God knows where
I hope you don't think that shit's fairGiving you all you want and more
Giving you every piece of me
But I will never can afford
I just want you to love for free
Can't you see that I'm getting bored?
Giving you every piece of me, piece of meI'm...
"Why did you stop that was amazing?" I was snapped back into reality by Brendon. I hadn't realized he was standing there. I sat there embarrassed as a slight blush grew on my cheeks. "Yeah no not really. But thanks." " Finish the song." i began to sing again.
I'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure you're all I need?
Forget about it
When you walk out the door and leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
I'm so bored, I'm so bored, so boredGiving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need
I don't want any settled scores
I just want you to set me free
Giving you what you're begging for
Giving you what you say I need, say I needI'm not afraid anymore
What makes you sure you're all I need?
Forget about it
And when you walk out the door and leave me torn
You're teaching me to live without it
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TBC
