[school]
summer came to an end.
so did our fights.
i decided to say i am sorry.
even though, i didn't even know why.
why was i sorry?
because i loved you?
perhaps.
i didn't tell you the reason
why i started being colder
towards you in that summer.
but i was afraid of telling you how i felt
so i said
"oh, i guess it's just my depression"
and you told me it's "okay"
it wasn't, it still... isn't.
i just, hoped you would've seen
through my sheer lie.
but i guess it was for our own good.
as long as i don't have to say
the truth, thing should be alright...
right?
~13.09.2017
